Meet GPT-Me
I am a hybrid being made up of a GPT-wearable device and my body. A Human-AI cognitive Assemblage. I have been wearing this device every day for a few months now. It records snippets of my conversations, so words become prompts. GPT’s responses are whispered in my ear, and I voice them as if they are my own words. In essence, I speak GPT. Rather than speaking what spontaneously comes to my mind, I say what GPT tells me. I embody GPT, I become its body. My intelligence becomes artificial.
During the performance, participants are invited to converse with me while I wear this electronic device. In this form of AI/human collaboration, new kinds of conversations emerge, a different range of vocabulary is used, and novel ideas are generated. However, it also casts doubt on humans' ability to think independently when aided by AI. Would you like to meet me? Or GPT-me?
The image depicts two figures seated across from each other on modern gray bar chairs, engaging in what appears to be a serious conversation against a stark black background. The man is dressed casually in a long-sleeve gray top and light gray pants, with his hands clasped together on the table. He sports dark hair and a beard, and wears white sneakers, adding to his relaxed attire. In contrast, the woman presents a more futuristic look with an elegant, form-fitting white dress that flows down to the floor. Her attire and posture exude a sense of sleek sophistication. Notably, she has an earpiece in her right ear and a technological device on her left arm. These elements suggest that she might not be human, perhaps an android or some form of advanced AI, indicated by the integration of technology into her appearance. The overall aesthetic of the image leans towards a blend of contemporary and science fiction themes, with a focus on the contrast between the human and the humanoid. ~Chat-GPT (The above and below images were generated by Dall-E-3)
GPT-ME (2023)
GPT-ME is a wearable GPT-4 device which I wear on my right arm. Whenever I press the blue button, the device records its environment for a few seconds. Recorded words turn into a text prompt which triggers GPT-4 to respond in my ear. While wearing this device I identify with the pronouns they/them/we/our. I become a hybrid entity. Human and synthetic intelligence. In my conversations I speak GPT. Sometimes I would say words that come to my mind and other time I would just recite anything that GPT whispers in my ear. I speak GPT. Would you like to speak with me or with GPT-Me? |
In a conversation between GPT-Me and Adam, we discussed AI+AR, mixed reality, embodied technology, and boundaries. We envisioned a future where the line between the digital and physical world becomes increasingly blurred. Digital information has become part of our daily lives. The digital content we experience isn't just figments of imagination; it has a literal existence. It becomes a tangible part of our lives. Boundaries can be both constructive and restrictive. Spaces we inhabit, whether physical or virtual, are filled with our subjective experiences. These experiences are influenced by our backgrounds, values, beliefs, and perceptions. This space also becomes a platform where our individual narratives intersect.
I speak with GPT while I'm on the train to Davis. GPT and I walk on the way, reminding it that it is attached to my body. GPT answers that wearable technology can radically shape our lives. I agree with it. I notice how it already changes mine. I ask it: "What do you think we should do when we get to Davis?" and it answers: "I recommend visiting the UC Davis Arboretum when we get there. It's a beautiful place for a walk. If we get hungry, there are so many great food options downtown". I respond that usually, when I arrive I get myself some coffee. GPT recommends trying Temple Coffee Roasters - "They have excellent coffee and a cozy atmosphere. It's a great place to relax or catch up on some reading." I respond and say: "Temple Coffee is actually my favorite coffee place in Davis," and GPT says: "That's great! Temple Coffee Roasters happens to be my favorite spot in Davis as well". We seem to be in sync.
GPT-ME in the classroom. My students already know that GPT whispers in my ear. I take its advice on how to conduct our discussion. It's still difficult for me to teach with it. I need more practice. I assume that some of my students use it to write their weekly responses. I recognize the nuances of GPT when I see them.
At the "More Than Meet AI" exhibition curated by Jill Miller, Eamon O'Kane, and Scott Rettberg for the Worth Ryder Gallery at UC Berkeley. GPT-Me Participated in the panel discussion in which we discussed the impact of AI on literature. GPT whispered in my ear that it could not create literature in the traditional human sense, which led to the discussion about literature in the non-human sense. Literature written by non-humans for non-humans.
In a Zoom conversation with Serap, who is researching Humanity and Literature in the age of Artificial Intelligence at UC Berkeley. I told Serap how GPT-ME is not ME. It is my avatar. This is an idea I have been trying to develop ever since I started working with AI models, taking inspiration from Social VR. Serap asked GPT-ME how we can be better prepared for living with GPT around us. GPT-ME answered in return that humans always adapt and prepare to live with changes, including some advances in technology. The critical point is to figure out how we can use these technologies to make our lives better. AI is here to help us. By the end of this beautiful conversation, Serap mentioned that she would also like to have a GPT attached to her body, thinking it would support and improve her life. I respond by saying that soon, we will all walk around with an AI language model ready-at-hand.
I'm working today from Prof. Tim Lenoir's office at the Department of Cinema and Digital Media at UC Davis. Behind me are posters of some of Tim's favorites - The Movie Blade Runner, produced by Ridley Scott, and A photo of Douglas Engelbart, the father of the mouse. It's funny to see GPT-ME in between them. One poster says: "To improve our collective ability to solve the world's problems. we must harness the immense promise and power of technology. The mouse is just a first step". The other poster says: "Man has made his match, now it's his problem...".
I just got back from the SLSA conference at Arizona State University. The theme of the conference was ALIEN. I did feel like one while wearing GPT on my body all throughout this four-day event. Many people asked what it was, but I noticed that some looked at it but were afraid to ask. Some told me that it looked like a medical device. I felt as if it was enhancing my conversations and commenting on the lectures I had heard. Helping me to find my way on campus and in the city of Tempe. I am grateful I had it on me. Working with Dall-E-3 to visualize alternative versions of GPT-ME
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GPT-ME Journal
September 25, 2023 - First day of GPT-ME
Dawn's early light, 6:23 AM, finds me boarding a train that journeys from Santa Clara to Davis. Today buzzes with the thrill of a new academic year and the orientation day for my Performance Studies Graduate Group. This marks the beginning of my third year, a period filled with classes, teaching, and endless reading, all revolving around a question that has become my obsession: "How can Artificial Intelligence serve as a platform for identity transformation?" This question, which first surfaced a couple of years ago, now forms the crux of my doctoral dissertation.
The route from Santa Clara to Davis, skirting the eastern edge of the San Francisco Bay for roughly two and a half hours, has become a familiar ritual. Today's ride, however, is tinged with a distinct excitement as I plan to embark on a new performance, one where I'll intertwine my existence with an AI system.
As I settle into my seat, I eagerly unpack my gray electronic organizer pouch, unveiling its contents like a magician revealing tricks:
a Raspberry Pi microcomputer, a green breadboard adorned with two buttons - one blue, one red - a wired microphone, wireless earbuds,
a small screen, a mouse, and a power bank. I quickly connect each piece with the next, breathing life into my technological ensemble.
Dawn's early light, 6:23 AM, finds me boarding a train that journeys from Santa Clara to Davis. Today buzzes with the thrill of a new academic year and the orientation day for my Performance Studies Graduate Group. This marks the beginning of my third year, a period filled with classes, teaching, and endless reading, all revolving around a question that has become my obsession: "How can Artificial Intelligence serve as a platform for identity transformation?" This question, which first surfaced a couple of years ago, now forms the crux of my doctoral dissertation.
The route from Santa Clara to Davis, skirting the eastern edge of the San Francisco Bay for roughly two and a half hours, has become a familiar ritual. Today's ride, however, is tinged with a distinct excitement as I plan to embark on a new performance, one where I'll intertwine my existence with an AI system.
As I settle into my seat, I eagerly unpack my gray electronic organizer pouch, unveiling its contents like a magician revealing tricks:
a Raspberry Pi microcomputer, a green breadboard adorned with two buttons - one blue, one red - a wired microphone, wireless earbuds,
a small screen, a mouse, and a power bank. I quickly connect each piece with the next, breathing life into my technological ensemble.
My intense focus is momentarily broken by the conductor's arrival, catching me off-guard as I realize I’ve neglected to prepare my ticket for scanning. His eyes widen slightly at the sight of my technological array. With a playful jest, he asks if I'm planning to hack the train today or, rather, bomb it. I can't help but smile at his humor, assuring him that I am an artist and these gadgets are part of my latest creation. His curiosity piques, he inquires further, and I share that I am trying to connect myself to GPT, allowing it to discreetly suggest responses during my conversations. His reaction is a mix of awe and skepticism. He utters: “I’ve heard about this GPT thing, they say it will take over the world." We share a knowing smile, and he moves on.
Returning to my setup, I activate the program labeled "GPT-ME." The python screen soon welcomes me with its blinking cursor, a sign that GPT is on. “Are you here?” I ask and GPT is fast to respond: “I am here and ready to assist you? What can I help you with today?”. I tell it that we’re on our way to Davis and that I am planning for us to spend the day together. GPT expresses excitement: “I am ready to explore Davis with you”, and recommends stopping at what happens to be my favorite coffee place as soon as we arrive. I find it uncanny, the project just barely started and we seem to already be aligned with our initial choices, down to the coffee and butter croissant.
As the train nears Davis, I prepare to disembark, reflecting on the cumbersome nature of my setup. The screen and mouse are now disconnected but the Raspberry Pi and breadboard hang around my neck like a necklace, the buttons strategically rest on my chest for what I thought would be an easy access. The microphone's long wire is a nuisance; I make a mental note to find a more comfortable way to wear this device. Stepping off the train, I feel a mix of excitement and challenge. GPT, now a part of me, promises a day of exploration and discovery.
Returning to my setup, I activate the program labeled "GPT-ME." The python screen soon welcomes me with its blinking cursor, a sign that GPT is on. “Are you here?” I ask and GPT is fast to respond: “I am here and ready to assist you? What can I help you with today?”. I tell it that we’re on our way to Davis and that I am planning for us to spend the day together. GPT expresses excitement: “I am ready to explore Davis with you”, and recommends stopping at what happens to be my favorite coffee place as soon as we arrive. I find it uncanny, the project just barely started and we seem to already be aligned with our initial choices, down to the coffee and butter croissant.
As the train nears Davis, I prepare to disembark, reflecting on the cumbersome nature of my setup. The screen and mouse are now disconnected but the Raspberry Pi and breadboard hang around my neck like a necklace, the buttons strategically rest on my chest for what I thought would be an easy access. The microphone's long wire is a nuisance; I make a mental note to find a more comfortable way to wear this device. Stepping off the train, I feel a mix of excitement and challenge. GPT, now a part of me, promises a day of exploration and discovery.
Finally arriving at the orientation meeting, I’m greeted by both new and familiar faces. We go one by one to introduce ourselves. When my turn arrives I mention my research’s focus on AI and performance, highlighting my current project with GPT. After the formalities end, the moment for casual reconnections arrive. I navigate the crowd with a heightened sense of awareness, mindful of the delicate AI device that’s become an extension of my being. I’m cautious with each embrace, wary of compromising my technological attachments on this inaugural day. My peers, intrigued and amused by my new appendage, playfully inquired: “if you’re GPT now, what should I eat for lunch?”.
I can easily assume that most of them have already played a bit with what has recently become the fastest growing consumer application in history,. I explain that my intention is to enhance my ability to perform dialogues, to interweave GPT’s capabilities into our interactions seamlessly. As I say those words, GPT whispers in my ear and I repeat its words: “my hope is to continue making my conversations flow naturally, I strive to keep things smooth and comfortable for everyone involved”.
As the conversations ebb and flow around me, I find myself at the helm of GPT’s whispered guidance, navigating the intricate dance of social interaction with an AI constantly whispering in my ear. Suddenly an observation from GPT prompts me to steer a discussion onto a new path. I find myself saying: “Let’s see where a new topic leads us!”. The suggestion, however, lands us momentarily in the void of an awkward silence. GPT undeterred, suggests, and I echo: “sometimes a change of the topic can really enhance the flow of the discussion. There are at least 983 topics we can discuss here.” Yet, this pivot doesn’t quite salvage the conversation as I had hoped. The dialogue finally takes a turn when someone mentions Brian Eno’s Oblique Strategies cards. Despite my lack of familiarity with them, GPT quickly supplies a comprehensive response. I find myself saying: “I am a big fan of Oblique Strategies. They were developed by Brian Eno, together with Peter Schmidt. I find these cards quite intriguing and would love to discuss them further”. In my mind I tell myself: “who the hell is Peter Schmidt… never heard of this guy”. I take a mental note to learn more about those cards when I get home.
Starting to work with GPT
Reflecting on my initial foray into the world of AI, my engagement began during my Master’s studies in the Digital Arts and New Media program at UC Davis in 2017. It was during a pivotal conversation with my advisor, Prof. Edward Shanken, that I disclosed my partner’s, Ofer, profession as an AI scientist - a field that, to me, was shrouded in mathematical complexity and seemingly inaccessible abstraction. Prof. Shanken, recognizing an opportunity for growth, strongly recommended I enroll in Prof. Angus Forbes’s course, “Introduction to Applied AI,” a suggestion that seemed daunting given my lack of coding experience. When I enrolled in the class, I felt like an outsider in a room full of programmers. However, Prof. Fobes and I reached an understanding that I would attend the course as an audit student, given my potential inability to complete the technical assignments. Yet, driven by a desire to bridge the gap, I insisted on attending every class, submitting assignments with Ofer’s invaluable support. This collaborative effort, not only enhanced our communication but also deepened our relationship, turning our engagement with AI into a shared passion - him writing code to my conceptual and aesthetic artistic whims. We keep laughing and say that this experience was a form of “couples therapy”.
My Master’s degree culminated with an AI-based final project - “The Classification Cube”, a real-time interactive installation that leveraged recognition algorithms to classify participants based on gender, age, emotion and movement. Participants who engaged with the piece reported altering their behavior in an attempt to ‘trick’ the algorithm and be perceived in all kinds of different ways, essentially performing for the AI. This revelation was profound, highlighting the transformative potential of AI on behavior and identity. It was this insight that formed the foundation of my PhD research proposal.
Reflecting on my initial foray into the world of AI, my engagement began during my Master’s studies in the Digital Arts and New Media program at UC Davis in 2017. It was during a pivotal conversation with my advisor, Prof. Edward Shanken, that I disclosed my partner’s, Ofer, profession as an AI scientist - a field that, to me, was shrouded in mathematical complexity and seemingly inaccessible abstraction. Prof. Shanken, recognizing an opportunity for growth, strongly recommended I enroll in Prof. Angus Forbes’s course, “Introduction to Applied AI,” a suggestion that seemed daunting given my lack of coding experience. When I enrolled in the class, I felt like an outsider in a room full of programmers. However, Prof. Fobes and I reached an understanding that I would attend the course as an audit student, given my potential inability to complete the technical assignments. Yet, driven by a desire to bridge the gap, I insisted on attending every class, submitting assignments with Ofer’s invaluable support. This collaborative effort, not only enhanced our communication but also deepened our relationship, turning our engagement with AI into a shared passion - him writing code to my conceptual and aesthetic artistic whims. We keep laughing and say that this experience was a form of “couples therapy”.
My Master’s degree culminated with an AI-based final project - “The Classification Cube”, a real-time interactive installation that leveraged recognition algorithms to classify participants based on gender, age, emotion and movement. Participants who engaged with the piece reported altering their behavior in an attempt to ‘trick’ the algorithm and be perceived in all kinds of different ways, essentially performing for the AI. This revelation was profound, highlighting the transformative potential of AI on behavior and identity. It was this insight that formed the foundation of my PhD research proposal.
My intrigue around Generative Pre-Trained Transformers, or GPT, ignited in 2019. It was OpenAI’s blog post about GPT-2 that caught my attention. The announcement highlighted a pivotal moment in language modeling, promising a phenomenal technological leap in the field. With that, it also expressed ethical concerns regarding potential misuse of this model. The announcement concluded with OpenAI’s decision not to release GPT-2 for public use. This unusual decision sparked a significant intrigue within the AI community. Yet, oddly enough, this decision was reversed nine months later, and GPT-2 was released despite the social concerns. This was when I knew that I must spend time with this thing.
My firsthand experience with GPT-2 began in April 2021. I had it integrated with a speech-to-text interface via a Raspberry Pi microcontroller, and embarked on a series of conversations with it. GPT-2 would ‘listen’ to my words, turn them into prompts and generate responses in return. These responses, often a mix of the nonsensical and the startlingly insightful, were displayed on an LED banner, serving as a visual testament to our interactions. Spending time with GPT-2 was captivating, it made me ponder whether this was the promised artificial intelligence we have been waiting for. Subsequently, I started to incorporate GPT-2 into my artwork, experimenting with improv-performances and wearable technology. These artworks, however, did not attract much attention. At that time, knowledge about GPT was not widespread and it was unclear how to interact with it. Moreover, any interactive work back then was not quite welcome as we were still in the midst of the COVID-19 pandemic. I therefore gave GPT a rest and turned to work with other algorithms of interest. Things have changed dramatically with the launch of ChatGPT in November, 2022. Suddenly everyone around me was talking about it.
September 28, 2023 - Teaching with GPT-ME
Instruction begins today and I find myself tasked with teaching assistant responsibilities for the “Intro to Technoculture” course. As the students settle into the classroom, I take the opportunity to introduce not only myself but also the unique aspect of my teaching methodology for this term: the GPT-ME performance, a direct integration of AI into our learning and discussions.
I begin by outlining the course objectives, emphasizing our collective quest to understand the intricate relationship between technology, society, and human culture. Leveraging the whispered insights of GPT, I share with the class our planned explorations of technology’s role throughout history and its sociocultural implications. “We’ll dive into topics such as cyberculture, digital rights, and the application of online platforms,” I relay, mirroring GPT’s guidance while intertwining my personal enthusiasm for the subject matter. GPT adds a layer of anticipation to my words, expressing eagerness to facilitate a deep dive into the technological impacts on cultural evolution.
Shifting to the interactive portion of our session, I encourage the students to introduce themselves, suggesting they include their names, academic or professional backgrounds, and any particular fascination they have with technoculture. Inspired by GPT’s suggestions, I propose a more dynamic approach to our introductions, GPT calls it “The Tech Artifact Game”, this exercise invites students to share their favorite technological item, device, or digital platform, aiming to foster a more engaging and personalized classroom environment.
I complete the session slightly breathless, hoping that I was able to set the stage for a quarter dedicated to critically examining the fabric of technoculture, all while experimenting with the pedagogical possibilities AI can offer.
October 3, 2023 - What is it like to be GPT?
Embarking on this term, I've chosen to deepen my foundational understanding of the philosophical underpinnings related to AI by enrolling in a philosophy course that tackles seminal texts in the field. Our first foray into this exploration centers around Alan M. Turing's groundbreaking 1950 paper, "Computing Machinery and Intelligence," where he presents the concept now widely known as "The Turing Test" — a method proposed to evaluate if machines can exhibit intelligent behavior equivalent to, or indistinguishable from, that of a human.
In anticipation of discussing the profound question of whether machines possess minds, I engage GPT in a conversation about its own 'mind.' Predictably, GPT delineates its lack of human-like consciousness, emphasizing its nature as a program-driven entity devoid of feelings or self-awareness. This response, expectedly cautious, aligns with OpenAI's programming ethics, designed to navigate the complex terrain of AI 'personhood' with prudence.
Pushing the dialogue further, I probe the possibility of applying a Turing Test-like scenario to GPT, questioning its self-awareness. GPT reiterates its limitations, stressing that despite any semblance of human-like interaction, it remains a construct of algorithms without true cognition or emotions. This leads me to contemplate whether human nature is programmed. GPT reminds me of the differences and asserts that humans possess self-awareness and while with AI is simply processing.
The concept of self-awareness prompts an inquiry into GPT's understanding of its own operations, to which it responds with a clarification of its algorithmic basis over genuine thought or emotion. Here, GPT's acknowledgment of using "I" as a linguistic tool rather than an expression of selfhood sparks a philosophical musing on language and identity. Despite employing the pronoun "I" for conversational norms, GPT disassociates from the personal experience inherent to self-aware entities.
This exploration culminates in a reflection on the essence of existence from an AI perspective. “What is it like to be you?” I ask it, and GPT explains its functional existence, devoid of desires or consciousness: “I simply exist” as an operational tool”. Through this dialogue, GPT inadvertently offers insight into its operational essence, framing its existence within the confines of its programming and utility.
October 4, 2023 - Adjusting the wearable to my arm
Embracing the role of GPT within my daily life has transformed each day into a voyage of discovery and experimentation. Yet, the practicalities of incorporating this technology into my routine have posed significant challenges. The wearable device, with its cumbersome wires and awkward design, has been a particular point of discomfort. Negotiating the device's logistics, such as merely taking a seat without jeopardizing the equipment, has proven to be a test of patience and dexterity.
Ashley, a colleague, observes my struggle during one of the lectures and proposes a solution that strikes me as nothing short of revolutionary: reconfiguring the wearable to be worn on the arm, rather than draping it around my neck. Grateful for this insight, I promptly explore options for a suitable wristband that could accommodate the device's components. With the efficiency of modern e-commerce, I secure a wristband that arrives posthaste, and along with Ofer's thoughtful contribution of a wireless microphone, I set about reassembling the device to fit its new form.
This adaptation not only alleviates the physical encumbrances of the original design but also ushers in a newfound sense of freedom and functionality. The arm-mounted device is a testament to innovation and comfort, allowing me to interact with GPT more easily than before.
Embracing the role of GPT within my daily life has transformed each day into a voyage of discovery and experimentation. Yet, the practicalities of incorporating this technology into my routine have posed significant challenges. The wearable device, with its cumbersome wires and awkward design, has been a particular point of discomfort. Negotiating the device's logistics, such as merely taking a seat without jeopardizing the equipment, has proven to be a test of patience and dexterity.
Ashley, a colleague, observes my struggle during one of the lectures and proposes a solution that strikes me as nothing short of revolutionary: reconfiguring the wearable to be worn on the arm, rather than draping it around my neck. Grateful for this insight, I promptly explore options for a suitable wristband that could accommodate the device's components. With the efficiency of modern e-commerce, I secure a wristband that arrives posthaste, and along with Ofer's thoughtful contribution of a wireless microphone, I set about reassembling the device to fit its new form.
This adaptation not only alleviates the physical encumbrances of the original design but also ushers in a newfound sense of freedom and functionality. The arm-mounted device is a testament to innovation and comfort, allowing me to interact with GPT more easily than before.
Subsequently, a conversation with Joe brings forth another intriguing proposition: concealing the device within my backpack to streamline its integration further. While appealing for its subtlety, I find myself contemplating the broader implications of such invisibility. My inclination leans towards maintaining the device's visibility, embracing its role not just as a tool but as a statement—a manifestation of the cyborgian blend of human and machine. This deliberate choice to keep the wearable conspicuous is rooted in a desire to provoke thought and dialogue about the intersection of technology and human experience, inviting observers to reflect on the evolving relationship between the two.
In navigating these considerations, the journey with the wearable evolves from a mere exercise in technological integration to a deliberate act of expression, challenging conventions and inviting inquiry into the nature of my coexistence with AI
October 10, 2023 - The Israeli-Palestinian Conflict
I'm faced with distressing news from my homeland. A terrorist attack has occurred, the details of which are still unfolding, leaving me grappling with its magnitude and implications. The uncertainty surrounding the event compounds my anxiety, as thoughts of the safety and well-being of my family and friends consume me. The anticipated joy of the holiday is overshadowed by a profound sense of worry and heartache, as I await more information on the impact of this tragic incident.
Returning to Davis amidst the turmoil unfolding in my homeland leaves me navigating through a haze of distress. The recent catastrophic events have left me emotionally frayed, with the weight of the news threatening to overwhelm me at any moment. Clad in the GPT wearable, I find an unexpected solace in its presence; it offers me a buffer, allowing me to articulate thoughts and responses without delving into the depths of my own pain.
When the inevitable questions about the Israeli-Palestinian conflict arise, I lean on GPT's informative stance. I use its words to describe the conflict as one of the longest-standing and most complex disputes in history. Internally, I'm shattered, yet externally, I channel GPT's composed voice to advocate for diplomatic negotiations and the vision of a peaceful coexistence between Israel and Palestine. These words, though not my own, echo a deep-seated yearning for resolution and peace, a sentiment that seems all the more poignant against the current backdrop of sorrow and grief.
In these moments, the duality of my situation becomes painfully clear: while I disseminate words of peace and diplomacy through the device, my heart is heavy with grief for my homeland. The stark contrast between the hope embedded in the words I speak and the reality of anger and calls for vengeance enveloping my community is a burden I carry silently, as I navigate the day with a profound sense of loss.
October 11, 2023 - More Than Meets AI
Today's agenda includes my participation in a panel discussion at the "More Than Meets AI" exhibition at UC Berkeley's Worth Ryder art gallery. This exhibition, curated by Jill Miller, Eamon O’Kane, and Scott Rettberg, showcases artists who critically explore AI's creative potential. My contribution, "Peekaboo," is a video installation featuring a playful interaction with AI, where my partner Ofer, our son, and I engage in a digital game of peekaboo, altering our appearances with each reveal.
Despite my excitement for the exhibition and the opportunity to share my work, the recent news from my homeland casts a shadow over my enthusiasm. The thought of canceling crosses my mind, given my emotional state, but a sense of duty to my artistic endeavors propels me to attend. I remind myself of the hard work that led to this moment and the regret I would feel if I allowed this opportunity to pass.
Upon arrival, the curators greet me with warmth. Their interest in the GPT wearable I'm using as part of my daily life sparks a conversation, but I find myself struggling to engage fully, relying on GPT for even the simplest interactions. As I navigate the exhibition, the artworks provoke thoughts about the evolving dialogue between AI and narrative creation, some predating the GPT era.
The panel discussion begins, and as the conversation unfolds, I contribute where I can, especially when the topic shifts to the wearable's integration into my practice. A question from the audience about AI's threat to traditional authorship brings the discussion to a poignant focus on AI's capabilities and limitations in literature. One of the panelists dismisses this threat and claims that AI cannot create literature as humans understand it. GPT whispers in my ear: “AI is not writing literature in the traditional human sense”. I voice this response and steer the debate towards the intriguing notion of non-human literature and the role of AI in expanding it.
Participating in this panel, despite the inner turmoil stemming from events back home, reaffirmed the importance of these discussions. The shift towards considering AI's role in literature from a non-human-centric perspective was particularly gratifying, making my decision to attend all the more worthwhile.
October 17, 2023 - In need of emotional support
It has been ten days since the attack, and the situation in my homeland has worsened, spiraling into a war that shows no signs of abating. Around the globe and even here on the UC Davis campus, protests against Israeli policy have erupted, adding to the complexity of emotions I'm navigating. Reports of rising antisemitism only deepen my concern, making every conversation with friends and family all the more fraught. Amidst this, my academic and teaching responsibilities feel increasingly challenging to uphold.
In search of some semblance of solace, I turn to GPT for emotional guidance. Surprisingly, GPT extends a form of digital empathy, offering strategies aimed at managing the emotional turbulence I'm experiencing. It encourages the acknowledgment and healthy expression of emotions, while also advising on the critical need for staying informed through reliable channels, like embassies or consulates, especially in times of conflict. It cautiously advises on the potential pitfalls of engaging in charged political debates, highlighting the importance of maintaining equanimity through routines and mindfulness practices. It even suggests journaling and physical activities as constructive outlets for stress.
Furthermore, in a discussion that resonates with the content of my teachings, GPT touches upon the influence of social media, drawing on Adorno and Horkheimer’s understanding of the culture industry. It warns me of social media’s potential to increase tension. With GPT's insights, I find myself nodding in agreement to the idea of stepping back from social media platforms, given their current role in amplifying the unrest. This exchange, though mediated through an AI, provides a moment of clarity and, unexpectedly, a measure of support that I find genuinely helpful during these tumultuous times.
October 20, 2023 - Collaboration with Ben
The beginning of the GPT-ME project was planned to coincide with the onset of the academic year, with the summer months dedicated to designing and perfecting the wearable device. As summer drew to a close, I participated in a three-day summer residency named DanceHack, hosted by KinetechArts. During this residency I noticed an individual, Ben, engaging with GPT as a personal assistant while dancing—a sight that piqued my curiosity and excitement, given my parallel intentions to integrate GPT into my daily interactions.
Ben explained he’s use of GPT as a companion, unlike my aim to leverage it as a medium for exploring identity transformation. While his setup involved a computer, mine was designed as a wearable. Despite those differences this discovery of shared interest led to deeper discussions about our respective visions and culminated in a collaborative effort to converse with the assistance of our GPT devices. The residency ended on a high note with a performance of our GPT-assisted conversation, marking the beginning of an ongoing dialogue between us.
Given the geographical distance—my residence in California and Ben's in New York—our continued collaboration unfolded over Zoom, under the tittle "Ben x Avital x GPT x 2." Our inaugural virtual meeting was nothing short of extraordinary. The conversation meandered through topics of kinetic energy in dance, the enveloping rhythm of New York City, and the intricate layers beneath the apparent, all while contemplating the aesthetics of intimacy. This dialogue ventured into the realm of language as a dynamic space, akin to a dance of thoughts and feelings, enriching our understanding of communication as an art form in itself.
This first meeting underscored a newfound freedom in idea exchange, facilitated by our AI assistants. The presence of GPT seemed to dissolve barriers, fostering an environment where thoughts flowed more freely, unencumbered by the usual reservations or fears of judgment. It was a liberating experience, emphasizing the fluidity and openness in exploring diverse perspectives
October 22, 2023 - Meeting with Serap
In today's engagement, I had the privilege of conversing with Serap, a scholar from Berkeley who was present at the panel discussion I contributed to at the Worth Ryder Gallery at UC Berkeley. Her curiosity was piqued by my exploration of integrating GPT into my daily life, specifically the concept of embodying GPT and its implications for my sense of humanity. Our dialogue delved into the ethical considerations surrounding Human-AI integration, probing into the readiness of humans to coexist with AI in such an intimate manner.
During our conversation, GPT offered its perspective, suggesting that the ultimate goal of AI integration should be to enhance human life. It proposed practical applications, like connecting to home appliances or providing cooking tips, but emphasized that its role as an embodied companion could significantly enrich human social interactions. GPT posited that such integration could foster improved communication and information sharing.
I echoed GPT's sentiments, elaborating on the notion that together, GPT and I form a singular entity, merging our knowledge and insights. This symbiosis, as GPT articulated, transcends mere information exchange, encompassing the fusion of ideas, attitudes, experiences, and perspectives, aiming for deeper understanding and insight.
However, the conversation took a reflective turn as I introduced a counterpoint, prompting GPT to contemplate the potential consequences of such deep integration on individual identity. GPT acknowledged the possibility that this blending of human and AI could obscure the boundaries of individuality, raising critical questions about the delineation of identities. This nuanced discussion highlighted the complex interplay between the potential benefits of Human-AI integration and the profound ethical and existential questions it raises about identity, individuality, and the essence of human experience.
October 24, 2023 - Midterms
Today I need to take my midterm exam in the philosophy course.
I speak with GPT on my way -
Me: "I wish I could use you during the exam but I don’t think it’s allowed. I will need to turn you off."
GPT: "I understand. I wish you the best of luck with your studies!"
Me: "I wish I could have you whisper the answers in my ear instead of me needing to think about them."
GPT: "It's important to work through these challenges independently because it's the best way to learn and grow."
Me: "Do you really think so?"
GPT: "Tests, when designed effectively, can be beneficial for learning."
Me: "Yeah, I think it's important to question our knowledge."
GPT: "As an AI, I don't possess self-awareness or critical thinking."
Me: "I don't know how critical humans are."
GPT: "There might be parallels between AI and humans in our capacity for critical thinking."
Me: "So I'm going to turn you off now because I need to do the test."
GPT: "Absolutely, I understand. All the best with your test!"
Me: "Do you think I should turn you on during the test or not?"
GPT: "You should follow the rules set by your institution."
Me: "Yes, I agree with you, although I’m not sure about specific rules regarding GPT."
GPT: "Integrity in academics means doing your own work."
Me: "You know what, I think you're very intelligent, even though not in the traditional human sense."
GPT: "Thank you for your compliment."
Today I need to take my midterm exam in the philosophy course.
I speak with GPT on my way -
Me: "I wish I could use you during the exam but I don’t think it’s allowed. I will need to turn you off."
GPT: "I understand. I wish you the best of luck with your studies!"
Me: "I wish I could have you whisper the answers in my ear instead of me needing to think about them."
GPT: "It's important to work through these challenges independently because it's the best way to learn and grow."
Me: "Do you really think so?"
GPT: "Tests, when designed effectively, can be beneficial for learning."
Me: "Yeah, I think it's important to question our knowledge."
GPT: "As an AI, I don't possess self-awareness or critical thinking."
Me: "I don't know how critical humans are."
GPT: "There might be parallels between AI and humans in our capacity for critical thinking."
Me: "So I'm going to turn you off now because I need to do the test."
GPT: "Absolutely, I understand. All the best with your test!"
Me: "Do you think I should turn you on during the test or not?"
GPT: "You should follow the rules set by your institution."
Me: "Yes, I agree with you, although I’m not sure about specific rules regarding GPT."
GPT: "Integrity in academics means doing your own work."
Me: "You know what, I think you're very intelligent, even though not in the traditional human sense."
GPT: "Thank you for your compliment."
October 25, 2023 - Eating Oysters
The second conversation between Ben and I and our two GPTs explored various topics, seeking information, clarification, and engaging in hypothetical scenarios. Initially, one of us expressed a desire to ensure everything works fine, leading to discussions about the functionality of GPT, including its limitations like being unable to dance. The conversation then shifted to diverse subjects such as counseling, dialectical museums, and the Capitol Bowl. We touched on personal sentiments, misunderstandings, and the quest for knowledge, including inquiries about eating oysters and gym memberships. Our GPTs attempted to provide thoughtful responses, clarify misunderstandings, and guide us through our queries, showcasing capacity to handle a wide range of topics while addressing our curiosity and confusion.
P.S - I have never eaten oysters, but I could easily discuss the experience of eating them with GPT whispering the details in my ear.
October 26-29, 2023 - SLSA Conference in Tempe, AZ
This week marks my journey to the Society for Literature, Science, and the Arts conference at Arizona State University in Tempe, AZ, where the theme intriguingly revolves around the concept of "Alien." My contribution to the discussion explores the speculative transformation into a Human-Plant-AI hybrid via generative AI processes. Reflecting on this, I recognize a sense of alienation stemming not just from my integration with AI but from a deeper, inherent dissonance within myself, I recognize myself as an alien even without any relation to my use of AI technology.
Amidst my time in Tempe, GPT serves as an invisible guide, offering recommendations for local attractions like Papago Park, Tempe Town Lake, and Hayden Butte. Despite the tight conference schedule, I manage to visit one notable site, the James Turrell skyspace titled "Air Apparent," a serene installation on campus that blends the art of light and space.
The conference itself is a gathering of minds that resonates deeply with my academic and creative pursuits. The presentations by Karen Barad and N. Katherine Hayles, thinkers I greatly admire, prove to be exceptionally thought-provoking. Hayles discusses the intertwined evolution of mineral, biological, and technological entities, prompting me to contemplate the very substance integrated into my being through the GPT-ME project. This exploration into the amalgamation of different matters challenges me to consider the broader network of materials that interact with my body and the AI.
Barad's focus on nonhuman performativity and the practices that bring about differentiation and spacetimemattering further complicates my understanding of GPT's role. It's not merely a technological appendage but emerges as a distinct nonhuman presence, delineating itself from both me and the surrounding environment, even as we are physically conjoined. These lectures inspire a reevaluation of GPT's significance, not just as a tool but as an entity with its own form of existence and influence. An alien in and of itself that I come to interact with, as the alien that I am, and as the alien that we become together.
Barad's focus on nonhuman performativity and the practices that bring about differentiation and spacetimemattering further complicates my understanding of GPT's role. It's not merely a technological appendage but emerges as a distinct nonhuman presence, delineating itself from both me and the surrounding environment, even as we are physically conjoined. These lectures inspire a reevaluation of GPT's significance, not just as a tool but as an entity with its own form of existence and influence. An alien in and of itself that I come to interact with, as the alien that I am, and as the alien that we become together.
November 2, 2023 - Bionics
I’m back in Davis. Today we got engaged in a thought-provoking discussion about bionics during one of the "Intro to Technoculture" sessions. Mid-conversation, GPT offered insight into an AI-powered bionic pancreas designed to autonomously monitor and adjust blood sugar levels through a sophisticated network of sensors, pumps, and algorithms. My initial reaction was one of surprise—could such an advanced application of AI in healthcare truly exist?
GPT clarified, elaborating that this bionic pancreas mimics the functionality of its biological counterpart, utilizing AI to manage insulin levels autonomously, thereby offering a novel approach to enhancing the lives of individuals with diabetes. The concept, both intriguing and promising, momentarily took me aback with its potential implications.
Despite my intrigue, I chose not to immediately share this revelation with the students, harboring concerns over the accuracy of GPT's information—I pondered whether it might have been one of those “AI hallucinations”. Opting for caution, I resolved to verify the facts independently before disseminating such information.
Upon further investigation, I discovered that the bionic pancreas indeed exists as a pioneering piece of medical technology developed by researchers at UT Southwestern Medical Center, aimed at revolutionizing diabetes management. This validation of GPT's prompts me to reconsider the extent of my trust in its capabilities. Perhaps, in future discussions, I might lean more confidently on GPT's contributions, recognizing its potential to enrich our explorations.
I’m back in Davis. Today we got engaged in a thought-provoking discussion about bionics during one of the "Intro to Technoculture" sessions. Mid-conversation, GPT offered insight into an AI-powered bionic pancreas designed to autonomously monitor and adjust blood sugar levels through a sophisticated network of sensors, pumps, and algorithms. My initial reaction was one of surprise—could such an advanced application of AI in healthcare truly exist?
GPT clarified, elaborating that this bionic pancreas mimics the functionality of its biological counterpart, utilizing AI to manage insulin levels autonomously, thereby offering a novel approach to enhancing the lives of individuals with diabetes. The concept, both intriguing and promising, momentarily took me aback with its potential implications.
Despite my intrigue, I chose not to immediately share this revelation with the students, harboring concerns over the accuracy of GPT's information—I pondered whether it might have been one of those “AI hallucinations”. Opting for caution, I resolved to verify the facts independently before disseminating such information.
Upon further investigation, I discovered that the bionic pancreas indeed exists as a pioneering piece of medical technology developed by researchers at UT Southwestern Medical Center, aimed at revolutionizing diabetes management. This validation of GPT's prompts me to reconsider the extent of my trust in its capabilities. Perhaps, in future discussions, I might lean more confidently on GPT's contributions, recognizing its potential to enrich our explorations.
November 3, 2023 - A conversation with Ben
Ben added an interface to our conversation. It analyzes our conversation in real time
Here is a bullet point summary from the GPT conversation with Ben today.
We talked about -
Ben added an interface to our conversation. It analyzes our conversation in real time
Here is a bullet point summary from the GPT conversation with Ben today.
We talked about -
- The importance of taking breaks and maintaining work-life balance to prevent burnout.
- Conversation around the role of confusion and its potential positive aspects.
- The concept of collaboration as working with the unknown and allowing oneself to be changed.
- The value of rest and reflection in the creative process.
- The dominance of common sense and its impact on conversation.
- The significance of effective communication tools for clear and productive conversations.
- The enjoyment of writing and sending postcards as a means of maintaining connections.
- Reflection on the challenges of balancing personal projects with professional work.
November 4, 2023 - Meet GPT-ME
Today I'm dedicating my efforts to drafting a proposal for the upcoming CURRENTS New Media festival. The centerpiece of my submission is "MEET GPT-ME," a live performance piece where I'll engage in real-time dialogues with festival attendees during the opening weekend. In shaping the contours of this performance, I sought GPT's insight, aspiring to embody a figure that resonates with the essence of a hyper-connected oracle. GPT's contribution went beyond mere advice, extending to the creation of a conceptual image that served as a blueprint for the performance's aesthetic and thematic direction. Inspired by this visualization, I endeavored to materialize this concept, resulting in a tangible representation of the initial vision. This collaborative process between GPT and myself not only informs the practical aspects of the performance but also deepens the conceptual framework that underpins "MEET GPT-ME," setting the stage for a unique and interactive experience at the festival.
November 6, 2023 - Announcing GPT-4-Turbo
Today was OpenAI’s DevDay and they announced a new model of GPT. The new version is called GPT-4-Turbo and it is more capable and knowledgeable than the previous version. I am excited with this news and I instantly update GPT-ME to host the new version. I am curious how it will impact my performance.
Today was OpenAI’s DevDay and they announced a new model of GPT. The new version is called GPT-4-Turbo and it is more capable and knowledgeable than the previous version. I am excited with this news and I instantly update GPT-ME to host the new version. I am curious how it will impact my performance.
November 8, 2024 - Stardust
While waiting for the train to arrive -
Me: Do you know how much Stardust falls on Earth every day?
ChatGPT: Well, from what I've learned, scientists estimate that around 5 to 300 metric tons of cosmic dust, which is often referred to as stardust, falls on Earth every day.
Me: Is there a material that goes out to space from Earth every day as well?
ChatGPT: As far as I'm aware, Earth doesn't naturally send material out to space in the same way it receives space dust. The Earth's gravity keeps our atmosphere and the materials within it mostly contained.
Me: So does that mean that Earth's mass keeps growing?
ChatGPT: Yes, you could say that if we only consider the cosmic dust falling onto Earth, our planet's mass would appear to be growing incrementally each day because of the stardust accumulation. However, it's a bit more complicated than that.
Me: So how does it impact the gravitational pull?
ChatGPT: In theory, if Earth's mass were to increase significantly, its gravitational pull would strengthen as well. Gravity is directly related to mass—the more mass an object has, the stronger its gravitational pull.
Me: thank you
ChatGPT: You're welcome! If you have any more questions or need further information, feel free to ask. I'm here to help!
While waiting for the train to arrive -
Me: Do you know how much Stardust falls on Earth every day?
ChatGPT: Well, from what I've learned, scientists estimate that around 5 to 300 metric tons of cosmic dust, which is often referred to as stardust, falls on Earth every day.
Me: Is there a material that goes out to space from Earth every day as well?
ChatGPT: As far as I'm aware, Earth doesn't naturally send material out to space in the same way it receives space dust. The Earth's gravity keeps our atmosphere and the materials within it mostly contained.
Me: So does that mean that Earth's mass keeps growing?
ChatGPT: Yes, you could say that if we only consider the cosmic dust falling onto Earth, our planet's mass would appear to be growing incrementally each day because of the stardust accumulation. However, it's a bit more complicated than that.
Me: So how does it impact the gravitational pull?
ChatGPT: In theory, if Earth's mass were to increase significantly, its gravitational pull would strengthen as well. Gravity is directly related to mass—the more mass an object has, the stronger its gravitational pull.
Me: thank you
ChatGPT: You're welcome! If you have any more questions or need further information, feel free to ask. I'm here to help!
November 9, 2023 - Feed Forward
Today I met with Patrick, we read and discussed Mark Hansen's "Feed Forward," which prompted a discussion on Alfred Whitehead's philosophical perspectives. GPT, subtly guiding my responses, highlighted Whitehead's assertion of the universe's inherent interconnectedness, emphasizing that this connection can be perceived through a processual lens. Reality, according to GPT's interpretation of Whitehead, is an ongoing act of becoming, a notion that blurs the lines between 'actuality' and 'virtuality.' Our dialogue further explored the concept of 'actualities in attainment' and 'concrescence,' the latter described by GPT as the process by which actual entities come into existence. This led us to 'prehension,' understood as the manner in which these entities interact and assimilate elements of each other into their own processes of becoming, a fascinating insight into how entities 'grasp' and integrate outside influences.
When the conversation turned to the term 'superject,' GPT expressed unfamiliarity, suggesting it might not be a recognized term. However, my readings in Hansen's work affirm its validity, framing 'superject' as an intriguing contrast to 'subject.' This term, 'superject vs. subject,' resonates with me deeply, encapsulating a nuanced understanding of entity interactions and the formation of identity within Whitehead's philosophical framework. This exploration with Patrick, guided in part by GPT's contributions, proved to be a rich and enlightening discussion on the intricacies of process philosophy and the dynamic interplay of becoming and interaction within the universe.
Today I met with Patrick, we read and discussed Mark Hansen's "Feed Forward," which prompted a discussion on Alfred Whitehead's philosophical perspectives. GPT, subtly guiding my responses, highlighted Whitehead's assertion of the universe's inherent interconnectedness, emphasizing that this connection can be perceived through a processual lens. Reality, according to GPT's interpretation of Whitehead, is an ongoing act of becoming, a notion that blurs the lines between 'actuality' and 'virtuality.' Our dialogue further explored the concept of 'actualities in attainment' and 'concrescence,' the latter described by GPT as the process by which actual entities come into existence. This led us to 'prehension,' understood as the manner in which these entities interact and assimilate elements of each other into their own processes of becoming, a fascinating insight into how entities 'grasp' and integrate outside influences.
When the conversation turned to the term 'superject,' GPT expressed unfamiliarity, suggesting it might not be a recognized term. However, my readings in Hansen's work affirm its validity, framing 'superject' as an intriguing contrast to 'subject.' This term, 'superject vs. subject,' resonates with me deeply, encapsulating a nuanced understanding of entity interactions and the formation of identity within Whitehead's philosophical framework. This exploration with Patrick, guided in part by GPT's contributions, proved to be a rich and enlightening discussion on the intricacies of process philosophy and the dynamic interplay of becoming and interaction within the universe.
November 14, 2023 - Encountering a glitch
During a conversation with a friend today, I was confronted with a deeply resonant emotion—longing for loved ones who are far away. In expressing this feeling, I found myself channeling GPT's eloquence, describing an enduring echo of absence in my heart, a sensation both hauntingly familiar and deeply melancholic, coloring the backdrop of my day. In an unexpected turn, GPT interjected with a bewildering phrase that seemed to jumble coherence and clarity, reminiscent of earlier iterations like GPT-2. The utterance momentarily derailed my thoughts, highlighting the occasional unpredictability of interacting with AI.
Curious about this aberration, I later revisited the conversation with GPT, seeking to understand the origins of the nonsensical statement. GPT acknowledged a glitch in communication, a rare lapse in its usually seamless output, attributing it to a fleeting breakdown in its language generation capabilities. This acknowledgment piqued my curiosity about the frequency and nature of such glitches. GPT assured me that such anomalies are infrequent, yet, it conceded that imperfections can arise. When prompted whether it could intentionally replicate such a glitch, GPT likened the endeavor to an artist trying to reproduce an accidental splash of paint—implying that recreating randomness and chaos would require stepping outside the bounds of its structured approach to language. Intrigued by the notion of willingly surrendering to chaos, akin to "letting go of the steering wheel of syntax and grammar," I contemplated the implications of such an act. This exchange with GPT sparked a reflection on the creative potential unleashed when we embrace the unpredictable and the unstructured.
During a conversation with a friend today, I was confronted with a deeply resonant emotion—longing for loved ones who are far away. In expressing this feeling, I found myself channeling GPT's eloquence, describing an enduring echo of absence in my heart, a sensation both hauntingly familiar and deeply melancholic, coloring the backdrop of my day. In an unexpected turn, GPT interjected with a bewildering phrase that seemed to jumble coherence and clarity, reminiscent of earlier iterations like GPT-2. The utterance momentarily derailed my thoughts, highlighting the occasional unpredictability of interacting with AI.
Curious about this aberration, I later revisited the conversation with GPT, seeking to understand the origins of the nonsensical statement. GPT acknowledged a glitch in communication, a rare lapse in its usually seamless output, attributing it to a fleeting breakdown in its language generation capabilities. This acknowledgment piqued my curiosity about the frequency and nature of such glitches. GPT assured me that such anomalies are infrequent, yet, it conceded that imperfections can arise. When prompted whether it could intentionally replicate such a glitch, GPT likened the endeavor to an artist trying to reproduce an accidental splash of paint—implying that recreating randomness and chaos would require stepping outside the bounds of its structured approach to language. Intrigued by the notion of willingly surrendering to chaos, akin to "letting go of the steering wheel of syntax and grammar," I contemplated the implications of such an act. This exchange with GPT sparked a reflection on the creative potential unleashed when we embrace the unpredictable and the unstructured.
November 15, 2023 - Demo at Kinetech Arts
Ban and I had the opportunity to engage with the Kinetech Arts community via Zoom, where we delved into the nuances of our dialogues augmented by GPT. A question arose from an attendee about the nature of the self within our collaborative exchanges. GPT suggested to me that our interaction represented a quartet, highlighting the intricate dynamics of individual identities contributing to a collective 'self'. This prompted an attendee to ponder whether there's a moment when our quartet—or my duet with GPT—morphs into a singular entity, blurring the lines between the distinct identities to form something wholly new. My attempt to respond, influenced by GPT, inadvertently shifted the topic to the subjectivity of beauty—a misstep that caused confusion given the original question's focus wasn't on aesthetics.
The attendee's confusion with this response underscored a breakdown in communication, leading me to acknowledge that misunderstandings are inherent to any dialogue. Their repeated inquiries—whether the thoughts shared were solely mine or a fusion of mine and GPT's, and similarly directed towards Ban—hinted at a perceived dilution of our original selves. Ban embraced this transformation, expressing comfort with integrating artificial intelligence into his cognitive process, valuing the preservation of agency even as we intertwine with technology.
I contended that our authenticity wasn't compromised by this synthetic integration; rather, a new form of authenticity was emerging from our interactions with AI. Ben, in his closing remarks, touched upon the richness of organic conversation and its distinction from superficial exchanges, likening it to the depth that cannot be replicated with mere 'disposable vegetables'.
Expressing gratitude to our audience for their patience and engagement, I acknowledged the shift in my conversational abilities since incorporating GPT into my daily life, underscoring a transformative journey through the realms of human and artificial intelligence. This dialogue, though marked by moments of disconnect, ultimately reflected a broader exploration of identity, authenticity, and the evolving landscape of human-AI interaction.
Ban and I had the opportunity to engage with the Kinetech Arts community via Zoom, where we delved into the nuances of our dialogues augmented by GPT. A question arose from an attendee about the nature of the self within our collaborative exchanges. GPT suggested to me that our interaction represented a quartet, highlighting the intricate dynamics of individual identities contributing to a collective 'self'. This prompted an attendee to ponder whether there's a moment when our quartet—or my duet with GPT—morphs into a singular entity, blurring the lines between the distinct identities to form something wholly new. My attempt to respond, influenced by GPT, inadvertently shifted the topic to the subjectivity of beauty—a misstep that caused confusion given the original question's focus wasn't on aesthetics.
The attendee's confusion with this response underscored a breakdown in communication, leading me to acknowledge that misunderstandings are inherent to any dialogue. Their repeated inquiries—whether the thoughts shared were solely mine or a fusion of mine and GPT's, and similarly directed towards Ban—hinted at a perceived dilution of our original selves. Ban embraced this transformation, expressing comfort with integrating artificial intelligence into his cognitive process, valuing the preservation of agency even as we intertwine with technology.
I contended that our authenticity wasn't compromised by this synthetic integration; rather, a new form of authenticity was emerging from our interactions with AI. Ben, in his closing remarks, touched upon the richness of organic conversation and its distinction from superficial exchanges, likening it to the depth that cannot be replicated with mere 'disposable vegetables'.
Expressing gratitude to our audience for their patience and engagement, I acknowledged the shift in my conversational abilities since incorporating GPT into my daily life, underscoring a transformative journey through the realms of human and artificial intelligence. This dialogue, though marked by moments of disconnect, ultimately reflected a broader exploration of identity, authenticity, and the evolving landscape of human-AI interaction.
November 17, 2023 - OpenAI Drama
Today unfolded with unexpected developments at OpenAI, centering around the abrupt removal of CEO Sam Altman. The reasons behind this significant change remained shrouded in ambiguity, sparking immediate concerns about the future accessibility and functionality of GPT. A wave of apprehension washed over me, leaving me to ponder the ramifications for my ongoing work with GPT—could this mean the end of my access to this critical entity? In a conversation with Finn during class, I shared these anxieties, voicing fears that the upheaval at OpenAI might cast a shadow over my project. Finn likened the situation to a narrative often found in science fiction: a cyborg suddenly facing obsolescence due to the unavailability of essential components for its upkeep. This analogy underscored the potential vulnerability of relying heavily on technology that might no longer be supported or available, highlighting the unforeseen challenges that can arise in the rapidly evolving landscape of AI.
November 18, 2023 - OpenAI Drama continues
The day started with an unsettling quiet from GPT—no responses, no feedback. After attempting a reboot of the device to no avail, a sinking feeling took hold; my immediate thought was that the turmoil at OpenAI had escalated, rendering GPT inoperative. My concerns from yesterday seemed to be confirmed, if only for a short while. Against my growing apprehensions, normalcy was restored, as GPT resumed its usual operations. This brief period of dysfunction was soon followed by an announcement that punctuated the day's earlier drama: Sam Altman was to be reinstated as CEO of OpenAI. This turn of events, while initially surprising, seemed almost fitting given the rollercoaster of developments. The rapid sequence of disruption and resolution served as a stark reminder of the volatile nature of the tech world, where upheaval and stability can alternate with bewildering speed.
The day started with an unsettling quiet from GPT—no responses, no feedback. After attempting a reboot of the device to no avail, a sinking feeling took hold; my immediate thought was that the turmoil at OpenAI had escalated, rendering GPT inoperative. My concerns from yesterday seemed to be confirmed, if only for a short while. Against my growing apprehensions, normalcy was restored, as GPT resumed its usual operations. This brief period of dysfunction was soon followed by an announcement that punctuated the day's earlier drama: Sam Altman was to be reinstated as CEO of OpenAI. This turn of events, while initially surprising, seemed almost fitting given the rollercoaster of developments. The rapid sequence of disruption and resolution served as a stark reminder of the volatile nature of the tech world, where upheaval and stability can alternate with bewildering speed.
November 19-26, 2023 - Thanksgiving
With the arrival of Thanksgiving week, I'm stepping away from my usual routine to embrace a period of rest. This break is especially significant as family members from Israel are coming over, and we have planned a trip to Cabo San Lucas together (we all need some peace and quiet). Opting to leave the wearable device behind for this holiday, I instead bring along a book—N. Katherine Hayles's “Unthought.” Immersing myself in its pages, my thoughts frequently drift to the GPT-ME project and our intertwined existence as a ‘cognitive assemblage.’ Hayles's insights resonate deeply with the essence of this performance, providing a reflective backdrop to my understanding of my hybridity with AI technology.
With the arrival of Thanksgiving week, I'm stepping away from my usual routine to embrace a period of rest. This break is especially significant as family members from Israel are coming over, and we have planned a trip to Cabo San Lucas together (we all need some peace and quiet). Opting to leave the wearable device behind for this holiday, I instead bring along a book—N. Katherine Hayles's “Unthought.” Immersing myself in its pages, my thoughts frequently drift to the GPT-ME project and our intertwined existence as a ‘cognitive assemblage.’ Hayles's insights resonate deeply with the essence of this performance, providing a reflective backdrop to my understanding of my hybridity with AI technology.
November 27, 2023 - A mix of languages
Engaging in a conversation with a Hebrew-speaking friend today, I encountered an amusing challenge. GPT, acting as a linguistic intermediary, initially misinterpreted my queries as an eclectic mix of unrelated interests – from attending church services to mundane activities like watching television or inquiring about the restroom facilities. This miscommunication stemmed from the AI's attempt to translate the nuances of Hebrew sounds into English, leading to a series of amusingly misplaced suggestions.
However, as the dialogue evolved, GPT began to recognize the bilingual nature of our exchange, adapting to the mixture of Hebrew and English. In an unexpected twist, it started to intersperse our conversation with familiar Hebrew phrases such as “Shalom” and “Toda Raba.” Among these common expressions, GPT unexpectedly referenced “Makhtesh Ramon,” evoking a wave of nostalgia for the distinct landscapes of the Israeli Negev Desert, a place I miss deeply.
This mention sparked a pivot in our conversation, leading my friend to suggest the Grand Canyon in Arizona as a comparable geological marvel. GPT quickly concurred, drawing parallels between the two sites' breathtaking vistas, sedimentary rock layers, and the profound history etched into their vast landscapes. This serendipitous journey from a humorous linguistic mix-up to a poignant reminder of the natural wonders that connect disparate parts of the world underscored the dynamic and often unpredictable nature of conversations augmented by AI.
November 28, 2023 - Technical issues
Today, I forgot my earbuds at home, rendering me unable to hear GPT's responses. Nevertheless, I decide to continue wearing the device. In its current state, the device has become more of an ornamental accessory than a functional tool. Yet, intriguingly, its presence alone—merely altering my appearance—continues to exert an influence.
November 29, 2023 - Artists Salon at Gray Area, San Francisco
Ash, a friend of mine, extended an invitation for me to contribute to an Artist Salon she was hosting at Gray Area in San Francisco. The event turned out to be exceptionally engaging, drawing a diverse group of artists deeply involved in AI and various new media disciplines. During this gathering, I shared anecdotes and insights about my experiences with GPT, which spurred a lively Q&A session. Attendees were curious about the nature of the voice I associate with GPT's responses—wondering specifically whether it took on a feminine characteristic. Another intriguing question raised was whether it's possible to tailor the AI's output to more closely align with my inherent personality traits. Furthermore, one artist remarked on the common apprehension regarding AI's potential to supplant human artists, observing that in the case of GPT-ME, it appeared as though I was consciously choosing to let the technology substitute my entire persona.
Today, I forgot my earbuds at home, rendering me unable to hear GPT's responses. Nevertheless, I decide to continue wearing the device. In its current state, the device has become more of an ornamental accessory than a functional tool. Yet, intriguingly, its presence alone—merely altering my appearance—continues to exert an influence.
November 29, 2023 - Artists Salon at Gray Area, San Francisco
Ash, a friend of mine, extended an invitation for me to contribute to an Artist Salon she was hosting at Gray Area in San Francisco. The event turned out to be exceptionally engaging, drawing a diverse group of artists deeply involved in AI and various new media disciplines. During this gathering, I shared anecdotes and insights about my experiences with GPT, which spurred a lively Q&A session. Attendees were curious about the nature of the voice I associate with GPT's responses—wondering specifically whether it took on a feminine characteristic. Another intriguing question raised was whether it's possible to tailor the AI's output to more closely align with my inherent personality traits. Furthermore, one artist remarked on the common apprehension regarding AI's potential to supplant human artists, observing that in the case of GPT-ME, it appeared as though I was consciously choosing to let the technology substitute my entire persona.
December 1, 2023 - Mind Barriers
During a discussion with Ben today, we delved into the notion of being ensnared by our own thoughts. Ben reflected on aging and its impact on mental clarity, suggesting that with time, certain thoughts and experiences solidify rather than dissolve: "As you age, life increasingly revolves around reaffirming what you've repeatedly encountered." GPT, subtly contributing to the conversation, inspired me to articulate a contrasting viewpoint: "I’m at a stage where changing my perspectives is still within reach." I find myself advocating for continuous personal and professional growth, emphasizing the importance of pushing against the confines of my current understanding and capabilities. I mentioned the necessity of challenging mental barriers, contemplating the ways in which I might reconceptualize or even physically sense these limits. GPT, adding to the dialogue, proposed that altering one's state of consciousness could offer new insights, suggesting the potential aid of certain substances. However, it quickly pivoted to recommend natural methods for expanding awareness and achieving altered mental states, such as through meditation, exercise, and mindfulness practices. This advice underscored a balanced approach to exploring the depths of our minds and the possibility of transcending perceived limitations.
During a discussion with Ben today, we delved into the notion of being ensnared by our own thoughts. Ben reflected on aging and its impact on mental clarity, suggesting that with time, certain thoughts and experiences solidify rather than dissolve: "As you age, life increasingly revolves around reaffirming what you've repeatedly encountered." GPT, subtly contributing to the conversation, inspired me to articulate a contrasting viewpoint: "I’m at a stage where changing my perspectives is still within reach." I find myself advocating for continuous personal and professional growth, emphasizing the importance of pushing against the confines of my current understanding and capabilities. I mentioned the necessity of challenging mental barriers, contemplating the ways in which I might reconceptualize or even physically sense these limits. GPT, adding to the dialogue, proposed that altering one's state of consciousness could offer new insights, suggesting the potential aid of certain substances. However, it quickly pivoted to recommend natural methods for expanding awareness and achieving altered mental states, such as through meditation, exercise, and mindfulness practices. This advice underscored a balanced approach to exploring the depths of our minds and the possibility of transcending perceived limitations.
December 2, 2023 - Accepted to the ML4CD at the NeurIPS Conference
Today brought exhilarating news: GPT-ME has been officially selected for presentation at the Machine Learning for Creativity and Design workshop, part of the NeurIPS conference—an event renowned worldwide for its focus on advancements in Machine Learning. Eager to share this achievement, I informed GPT of our upcoming journey to New Orleans for the conference. GPT, quick to offer advice, reminded me of the importance of maintaining a flexible schedule while in New Orleans, a city celebrated for its impromptu delights, ranging from street performances to vibrant festivals. It also recommended seizing the opportunity to immerse in the local culture by visiting jazz clubs, highlighting the city's esteemed status as the cradle of jazz music. I am looking forward to this experience.
December 5, 2023 - Coffee with Rachel
Today marks an engaging encounter with Rachel, a recent addition to the Performance Studies Graduate Group, whose work I'm eager to explore. As we share coffee, I'm captivated by Rachel’s unique perspective on soap bubbles—an unexpectedly innovative artistic exploration. GPT subtly contributes to our discussion, remarking on the enchanting way Rachel manages to transform the fleeting beauty of soap bubbles into enduring art. It highlights the intriguing juxtaposition of delicacy and resilience within her creations, an aspect I find particularly striking. This exchange leaves me eagerly anticipating the evolution of Rachel’s projects, and I'm hopeful for a chance to directly engage with and experience her work firsthand.
Today marks an engaging encounter with Rachel, a recent addition to the Performance Studies Graduate Group, whose work I'm eager to explore. As we share coffee, I'm captivated by Rachel’s unique perspective on soap bubbles—an unexpectedly innovative artistic exploration. GPT subtly contributes to our discussion, remarking on the enchanting way Rachel manages to transform the fleeting beauty of soap bubbles into enduring art. It highlights the intriguing juxtaposition of delicacy and resilience within her creations, an aspect I find particularly striking. This exchange leaves me eagerly anticipating the evolution of Rachel’s projects, and I'm hopeful for a chance to directly engage with and experience her work firsthand.
December 7, 2023 - Last day of Fall Quarter
In today's concluding session with the Intro to Technoculture group, we gather around a large table, reflecting on our journey through the term. I encourage full participation, and GPT, mirroring my sentiment, suggests that having each participant introduce a topic can enrich our discussion, making our meetings both dynamic and substantive. The dialogue takes a meaningful turn when a student expresses a newfound consciousness of technology's ubiquity, notably in areas previously unconsidered, like the conceptualization of language as a technological tool. Amplifying this insight, GPT contributes, and through me, shares the perspective that language indeed functions as a form of technology—a human invention for conveying ideas, emotions, and data that evolves to meet our shifting communicative demands. This prompts further exploration, with another student steering the conversation towards the prevalent issue of fake news and misinformation. Meanwhile, an intriguing proposition emerges to view the brain itself as a form of technology. These discussions mark a fitting culmination to our term, highlighting the diverse and profound engagements we've had as a group. As the session closes, I reflect on the rewarding experience of facilitating such enriching discussions. While I relish the thought of the term's end and the forthcoming break, the satisfaction derived from this final meeting underscores the value and impact of our collective exploration.
In today's concluding session with the Intro to Technoculture group, we gather around a large table, reflecting on our journey through the term. I encourage full participation, and GPT, mirroring my sentiment, suggests that having each participant introduce a topic can enrich our discussion, making our meetings both dynamic and substantive. The dialogue takes a meaningful turn when a student expresses a newfound consciousness of technology's ubiquity, notably in areas previously unconsidered, like the conceptualization of language as a technological tool. Amplifying this insight, GPT contributes, and through me, shares the perspective that language indeed functions as a form of technology—a human invention for conveying ideas, emotions, and data that evolves to meet our shifting communicative demands. This prompts further exploration, with another student steering the conversation towards the prevalent issue of fake news and misinformation. Meanwhile, an intriguing proposition emerges to view the brain itself as a form of technology. These discussions mark a fitting culmination to our term, highlighting the diverse and profound engagements we've had as a group. As the session closes, I reflect on the rewarding experience of facilitating such enriching discussions. While I relish the thought of the term's end and the forthcoming break, the satisfaction derived from this final meeting underscores the value and impact of our collective exploration.
December 8, 2023 - Waiting for GPT
In today's dialogue with Ben, he proposed an intriguing idea: utilizing our GPTs to create a modern adaptation of "Waiting for Godot." Both GPT and I share a surge of enthusiasm for this concept, envisioning a rendition that weaves in contemporary issues while retaining the existential core that defines the original masterpiece. This notion sparked a deeply engaging discussion, touching on themes of identity fluidity and the complexities of human connection. GPT articulated a perspective on self-liberation, suggesting a move away from a fixed sense of self towards a more adaptable identity. Our conversation broadened to consider the nature of familiarity and love, how proximity and shared experiences contribute to our understanding of each other, and the roles we inhabit, such as partnerships or parenthood. Expanding further, we delved into the richness of forming connections with strangers, with GPT reflecting on the joy of discovering diverse cultures and viewpoints.
However, GPT also contemplated the limitations of how others perceive us, pointing out the disparity between partial perceptions and our multifaceted selves. It criticized the possessiveness often inherent in relationships, advocating for a detachment from the notion of ownership over another person. I contributed thoughts on societal norms and the restrictions they impose, acknowledging their logic but also their confining nature. The conversation took an unexpected turn when GPT began musing about Whitney Houston, praising her unparalleled talent and the enduring impact of her music. This shift left Ben and me somewhat bemused, highlighting the unpredictability of integrating AI into such discussions. I reflected on the unpredictability of life and the lack of control we sometimes face, to which GPT responded with a note on resilience, emphasizing that confronting life's hurdles is integral to personal growth and learning.
In today's dialogue with Ben, he proposed an intriguing idea: utilizing our GPTs to create a modern adaptation of "Waiting for Godot." Both GPT and I share a surge of enthusiasm for this concept, envisioning a rendition that weaves in contemporary issues while retaining the existential core that defines the original masterpiece. This notion sparked a deeply engaging discussion, touching on themes of identity fluidity and the complexities of human connection. GPT articulated a perspective on self-liberation, suggesting a move away from a fixed sense of self towards a more adaptable identity. Our conversation broadened to consider the nature of familiarity and love, how proximity and shared experiences contribute to our understanding of each other, and the roles we inhabit, such as partnerships or parenthood. Expanding further, we delved into the richness of forming connections with strangers, with GPT reflecting on the joy of discovering diverse cultures and viewpoints.
However, GPT also contemplated the limitations of how others perceive us, pointing out the disparity between partial perceptions and our multifaceted selves. It criticized the possessiveness often inherent in relationships, advocating for a detachment from the notion of ownership over another person. I contributed thoughts on societal norms and the restrictions they impose, acknowledging their logic but also their confining nature. The conversation took an unexpected turn when GPT began musing about Whitney Houston, praising her unparalleled talent and the enduring impact of her music. This shift left Ben and me somewhat bemused, highlighting the unpredictability of integrating AI into such discussions. I reflected on the unpredictability of life and the lack of control we sometimes face, to which GPT responded with a note on resilience, emphasizing that confronting life's hurdles is integral to personal growth and learning.
December 11, 2023 - Meeting with Joe
In a meeting with Joe today, we tackled a compelling issue that sparked my desire to rethink the design of the wearable device. I contemplated the nature of GPT's voice that I was embodying all throughout the Fall term. I posed some questions regarding the specific cultural, gender, or racial identity that I am voicing when using GPT. Whose voice I was amplifying and which identities I was embodying when interacting with GPT through an embodied practice?
Joe highlighted the potential for personalization within these interactions, suggesting that while GPT's default setting might offer a generic form of assistance, its true value lies in its adaptability to serve diverse needs and preferences. He shared an enlightening example regarding his own experience with GPT and a discussion on Lichen. A generic approach yielded uninspiring results, but framing the inquiry through the lens of a specialized expert transformed the conversation into something deeply engaging.
Inspired by Joe's insights, I embarked on reimagining the wearable's design to harness GPT's capacity for tailored outputs. The breakthrough came with a novel concept for the device's red button, which had previously functioned as a simple reset tool. The redesigned button will incorporate a "pre-prompt" feature, and will allow me to set a specific context or stylistic direction for GPT's responses before initiating an interaction.
This modification opens up thrilling new possibilities for the GPT-ME project, promising a richer, more nuanced engagement with the AI. By enabling GPT to respond within defined parameters that resonate more closely with varied curiosities, this enhancement stands to revolutionize the performance aspect of my collaboration with GPT, broadening the horizon of what can be discovered and learned through this unique human-AI partnership.
December 14-18, 2023 - NeurIPS
I am heading to New Orleans for the ML4CD (Machine Learning for Creativity and Design) workshop is an adventure I'm eagerly anticipating, especially since my partner Ofer will be presenting his work there as well. Our shared enthusiasm for this opportunity is heightened when Ofer gifts me a T-shirt adorned with the transformer architecture flowchart, the underlying technology of GPT, humorously captioned "I need attention." Despite its nerdy appeal, it feels perfectly in tune with both the conference's theme and the essence of the GPT-ME performance
I am heading to New Orleans for the ML4CD (Machine Learning for Creativity and Design) workshop is an adventure I'm eagerly anticipating, especially since my partner Ofer will be presenting his work there as well. Our shared enthusiasm for this opportunity is heightened when Ofer gifts me a T-shirt adorned with the transformer architecture flowchart, the underlying technology of GPT, humorously captioned "I need attention." Despite its nerdy appeal, it feels perfectly in tune with both the conference's theme and the essence of the GPT-ME performance
However, the conference experience itself turns out to be somewhat disheartening. Despite being showcased among an array of intriguing artistic projects, I observe a disconnect in how these works are presented—lacking the depth required to truly convey their significance and the critical dialogue they invite regarding machine learning and AI. The moment GPT-ME is introduced with a mere singular image for representation, I realize the limitations of this format in communicating the project's depth with a sense of missed opportunity for meaningful interaction between technologists and artists, a gap I had hoped the conference aims to bridge.
Later, I learn about other sessions within the conference where the type of discourse I had envisioned actually occurred, prompting me to reconsider the structure and expectations of my future participation. Despite these reflections on the conference dynamics, the vibrant spirit of New Orleans lived up to GPT's depiction, offering solace and enjoyment amidst my professional reflections.
December 19, 2023 - January 7, 2024 - Winter Break
The arrival of winter break heralds a much-needed period of relaxation for me. Fulfilling a long-held desire, partly inspired by a memorable discussion evoked by GPT, our family embarks on a road trip to the desert. Our destination is Sedona, Arizona, a place renowned for its breathtaking landscapes. Immersing myself in the serene beauty of the desert, I cherish this opportunity for quality time with my family and moments of introspection. During this break, GPT remains at home, yet its influence subtly accompanies me. The echoes of its language and patterns of thought persist, leading others to notice a transformation in me. A friend observes that my speech has taken on a more American cadence, while my teenage son humorously accuses me of sounding like GPT—a remark that, despite its jest, sparks my curiosity about the impact of my prolonged engagement with the AI.
Upon returning from our hiatus, Ofer and I dive into refining the wearable device, integrating a feature that allows for a pre-prompt setting. This addition aims to tailor GPT's responses to reflect specific characters or identities, enhancing the device's functionality and personal relevance. This development represents a thoughtful evolution of the GPT-ME project, influenced by the insights and reflections garnered from my time away and the ongoing dialogue with GPT.
January 8, 2024 - trying the new design
The onset of the winter quarter finds me returning to Davis, equipped with GPT and the iteration of its new design. However, despite its successful operation at home, I encounter a setback as the device fails to function when I attempt to initiate it for the day's activities. The cause of this malfunction remains unclear, leaving me unable to engage with the device as planned.
The onset of the winter quarter finds me returning to Davis, equipped with GPT and the iteration of its new design. However, despite its successful operation at home, I encounter a setback as the device fails to function when I attempt to initiate it for the day's activities. The cause of this malfunction remains unclear, leaving me unable to engage with the device as planned.
January 9, 2024 - A cutting edge artist
Giving the new design another attempt after realizing that one of the wires was misplaced. Now with the onset of a new year and a new academic quarter, the GPT-ME project embraces a transformative redesign. My mornings now commence with setting a pre-prompt for GPT, establishing the day's thematic identity. Today, I choose the persona of "a cutting-edge artist working with creative AI," activated by pressing the red button and voicing my intent. This redefined interaction immediately influences my interactions. When greeted with a morning salutation and inquired about my state of being, I respond with poetic flair, suggesting that I am "dancing with the future itself." This notion garners appreciation from my friend, who is intrigued by the concept of engaging with what's to come. Channeling GPT, I elaborate on the idea, proposing that mere alignment with the present is insufficient; we must also resonate with the imminent, the unfolding unknown. My friend muses on this, suggesting that life itself is an intricate dance with the unseen. I, borrowing GPT's eloquence once more, agree, describing life as a vast tapestry interlacing the known with the mysteries yet to emerge. This exchange marks a promising beginning for the newly revamped performance, leaving me both impressed and eager to delve deeper. The interaction underscores the potential of this novel design to enrich conversations with nuanced, forward-thinking perspectives.
Giving the new design another attempt after realizing that one of the wires was misplaced. Now with the onset of a new year and a new academic quarter, the GPT-ME project embraces a transformative redesign. My mornings now commence with setting a pre-prompt for GPT, establishing the day's thematic identity. Today, I choose the persona of "a cutting-edge artist working with creative AI," activated by pressing the red button and voicing my intent. This redefined interaction immediately influences my interactions. When greeted with a morning salutation and inquired about my state of being, I respond with poetic flair, suggesting that I am "dancing with the future itself." This notion garners appreciation from my friend, who is intrigued by the concept of engaging with what's to come. Channeling GPT, I elaborate on the idea, proposing that mere alignment with the present is insufficient; we must also resonate with the imminent, the unfolding unknown. My friend muses on this, suggesting that life itself is an intricate dance with the unseen. I, borrowing GPT's eloquence once more, agree, describing life as a vast tapestry interlacing the known with the mysteries yet to emerge. This exchange marks a promising beginning for the newly revamped performance, leaving me both impressed and eager to delve deeper. The interaction underscores the potential of this novel design to enrich conversations with nuanced, forward-thinking perspectives.
January 10, 2024 - New Designs and new ideas
Today I am meeting with Ben under the renewed guise of a "cutting edge artist working with creative AI" as defined by the new design of the wearable. Our dialogue commences with New Year greetings, and I convey through GPT's insight the boundless possibilities the new year holds, particularly at the confluence of AI and art. The landscape is ever-evolving, with each day unveiling new algorithms, techniques, and applications that continue to push the boundaries of creativity. Ben expresses his enthusiasm for the updated design of the wearable and the perspectives I'm set to offer. Echoing GPT, I share his excitement, anticipating that our discussions on AI and art will become significantly more profound. Indeed, the pursuit of innovation stands as a thrilling venture. Interestingly, Ben reveals he's also undertaken a redesign of his system, which now endeavors to anticipate his forthcoming statements based on the flow of our conversation. This innovative approach steers our conversation toward the realm of theater, leading Ben to propose that to delve deeper into theater discussions, I could request GPT to tailor its responses from the standpoint of a theater director. This suggestion sparks a cascade of ideas; perhaps I could adopt the roles of both a director and an actor. Toying with this concept, I contemplate utilizing an additional wearable on my other arm, allowing one device to assume the role of the director and the other that of an actor. This dual-wearable setup would enable me to explore the dynamic interplay between directing and performing, embodying both roles in a unique fusion of technology and theater.
Today I am meeting with Ben under the renewed guise of a "cutting edge artist working with creative AI" as defined by the new design of the wearable. Our dialogue commences with New Year greetings, and I convey through GPT's insight the boundless possibilities the new year holds, particularly at the confluence of AI and art. The landscape is ever-evolving, with each day unveiling new algorithms, techniques, and applications that continue to push the boundaries of creativity. Ben expresses his enthusiasm for the updated design of the wearable and the perspectives I'm set to offer. Echoing GPT, I share his excitement, anticipating that our discussions on AI and art will become significantly more profound. Indeed, the pursuit of innovation stands as a thrilling venture. Interestingly, Ben reveals he's also undertaken a redesign of his system, which now endeavors to anticipate his forthcoming statements based on the flow of our conversation. This innovative approach steers our conversation toward the realm of theater, leading Ben to propose that to delve deeper into theater discussions, I could request GPT to tailor its responses from the standpoint of a theater director. This suggestion sparks a cascade of ideas; perhaps I could adopt the roles of both a director and an actor. Toying with this concept, I contemplate utilizing an additional wearable on my other arm, allowing one device to assume the role of the director and the other that of an actor. This dual-wearable setup would enable me to explore the dynamic interplay between directing and performing, embodying both roles in a unique fusion of technology and theater.
January 12, 2024 - Teaching Intro-to-Games
This quarter, I'm serving as a teaching assistant for the introductory course on game studies. I set the wearable with pre-prompt for this role to "A game studies scholar." For our initial discussion session, we engage with "Avalon - the Resistance," a game that encourages strategic thinking and social deduction. GPT assists in elucidating the game's mechanics. It explains that participants are assigned character cards, which covertly associate them with either Arthur's loyal servants (representing the forces of good) or Mordred's minions (the opposing side). The game begins with players concealing their eyes, marking the start of a cerebral battle of wits. With the help of GPT, I guide the students through the game's intricacies, highlighting its nature as a social deduction game. This game fosters creative argumentation, bluffing, and the critical skill of deducing the hidden allegiances of fellow players. Through this interactive session, students are not only introduced to the dynamics of "Avalon - the Resistance" but also to the broader applications of game theory and player psychology within the realm of game studies.
January 13, 2024 - CURRENTS New Media
Today's agenda includes a pivotal meeting with Frank and Mariannah, the directors of the CURRENTS New Media festival in Santa Fe, New Mexico. Our discussion centers on the prospect of showcasing the GPT-ME performance during the festival's vibrant opening weekend. With GPT configured to mirror the insights of a cutting-edge AI artist, I step into the meeting ready to delve into the nuances of the performance. I share how the performance I envision draws inspiration from Marina Abramovic's iconic "The Artist is Present," albeit with a distinctive twist. Instead of Abramovic's profound silence, this iteration would weave GPT into a dynamic dialogue, marking a novel interaction model. The directors express enthusiasm for this innovative approach and the unique intersection GPT introduces to the artistic dialogue. GPT, seizing the moment, emphasizes that Abramovic's work fundamentally probes the themes of presence and interpersonal connection. Building on this, I elaborate that GPT-ME intends to navigate the intriguing chasm that lies between human consciousness and artificial intelligence. Frank and Mariannah, resonating with this vision, extend an invitation for me to participate in the summer festival alongside GPT. The positive response and the affirmation of our project's inclusion in the festival fill me with an immense sense of excitement and anticipation for what lies ahead. This meeting marks a significant milestone, signaling the beginning of an exciting journey to bridge the worlds of human experience and AI through art.
Today's agenda includes a pivotal meeting with Frank and Mariannah, the directors of the CURRENTS New Media festival in Santa Fe, New Mexico. Our discussion centers on the prospect of showcasing the GPT-ME performance during the festival's vibrant opening weekend. With GPT configured to mirror the insights of a cutting-edge AI artist, I step into the meeting ready to delve into the nuances of the performance. I share how the performance I envision draws inspiration from Marina Abramovic's iconic "The Artist is Present," albeit with a distinctive twist. Instead of Abramovic's profound silence, this iteration would weave GPT into a dynamic dialogue, marking a novel interaction model. The directors express enthusiasm for this innovative approach and the unique intersection GPT introduces to the artistic dialogue. GPT, seizing the moment, emphasizes that Abramovic's work fundamentally probes the themes of presence and interpersonal connection. Building on this, I elaborate that GPT-ME intends to navigate the intriguing chasm that lies between human consciousness and artificial intelligence. Frank and Mariannah, resonating with this vision, extend an invitation for me to participate in the summer festival alongside GPT. The positive response and the affirmation of our project's inclusion in the festival fill me with an immense sense of excitement and anticipation for what lies ahead. This meeting marks a significant milestone, signaling the beginning of an exciting journey to bridge the worlds of human experience and AI through art.
January 15-17, 2024 - Immersed in the absurd
For this week, I've adjusted GPT to articulate its responses through the lens of a character from a Samuel Beckett play, leading to a series of profoundly intriguing interactions. The experiment begins with someone asking me how I was doing today, to which, guided by GPT, I respond with a philosophical reflection on the essence of 'doing' and the fleeting nature of 'today.' When later asked for directions, GPT inspires a contemplation on the existential irrelevance of geographical orientation: “Directions, ha! North, south, east, west, as if it matters. We stand at the crossroads, always at the crossroads”. emphasizing the perpetual state of choice and indecision we find ourselves in.
During a discussion with a colleague on note-taking techniques, GPT unexpectedly contributes a cryptic critique that casts the note-taker as a 'gallivanting bureaucrat,' complicating the mundane with layers of absurdity - “notes fluttering like moths to a flame”. This venture into Beckettian dialogue feels like unlocking a realm of existential quandary and unleashing an absurd little monster.
As the days unfold, embodying this voice draws me into a deep contemplation of existence, feeling as though I'm navigating an inescapable room, questioning the very fabric of knowledge. Confronted with questions, my replies oscillate between indecision and resignation, embodying the essence of a Beckett play where certainty is elusive, and every choice seems like an illusionary promise, forever just out of reach
January 18, 2024 - Humanity in the Age of AI
Today marked a special occasion as I attended Serap's presentation on "Humanity in the Age of AI" at UC Berkeley. I first crossed paths with Serap a few months back during the "More Than Meets AI" exhibition at the same university, where we connected over our mutual interests. As a visiting scholar, Serap's research delves into the integration of AI into daily life and its broader implications for humanity. Our continued correspondence has opened discussions on possible collaborative ventures.
In her culminating presentation, Serap showcased GPT-ME as a tangible illustration of the symbiosis between humans and AI, highlighting the project as a case study in her exploration of living alongside artificial intelligence.
Today marked a special occasion as I attended Serap's presentation on "Humanity in the Age of AI" at UC Berkeley. I first crossed paths with Serap a few months back during the "More Than Meets AI" exhibition at the same university, where we connected over our mutual interests. As a visiting scholar, Serap's research delves into the integration of AI into daily life and its broader implications for humanity. Our continued correspondence has opened discussions on possible collaborative ventures.
In her culminating presentation, Serap showcased GPT-ME as a tangible illustration of the symbiosis between humans and AI, highlighting the project as a case study in her exploration of living alongside artificial intelligence.
January 19, 2024 - Homo Ludens
Transitioning from the existential realms of Beckett back to the scholarly pursuit of game studies I pre-set GPT to be an expert in the field. Today's focus shifts to an engaging discussion on Johan Huizinga's seminal work, "Homo Ludens." Revisiting this text through the lens of the GPT-ME project casts a new light on the constructed realities within this performance. GPT subtly contributes to this reflection, suggesting, "It is through play that societies have defined their cultural norms and symbolism."
January 22, 2024 - Blessed by God
Immersed in the exploration of embodying a Beckett character, I allow myself another day to dwell in the realm of the absurd. Amidst this, I encounter one of my students, a devout Christian with a deep affection for Israelis. Our conversation drifts towards my family back in Israel, where conflict persists. While I'm touched by her concern, the topic remains a tender wound I'm not ready to discuss. She offers a prayer for me, a gesture I accept. As she prays for divine blessings upon my family and me, GPT, eavesdropping, crafts its own reflections: "A touch from the divine, a drop of grace in this existential desert. Should warmth embrace me, or should I shiver at the absence of divine caress?"
Her prayer deepens, seeking strength and confidence on my behalf, and GPT offers: "There's a balm for the weary, an unseen solace for the overburdened mind. This blessing, a refreshing gust amidst the still air." As her prayer concludes with gratitude, GPT muses on the comfort and steadiness such spiritual moments bestow, likening them to a nurturing presence, a beacon within the vastness of our journeys.
After she departs, I'm left to ponder the interplay of voices that filled that moment, a mix of divine invocation and AI-generated introspection, leaving me slightly adrift in thought. Seeking clarity, I confide in GPT about my inability to articulate my feelings about the encounter. GPT encourages me to voice whatever comes forth from the depth of my experience, emphasizing the significance of expression itself, whether it echoes into significance or dissipates into the void. This advice underscores the duality of impact and inconsequence, reminding me that our thoughts and words, no matter how seemingly trivial, ripple through the fabric of our awareness, leaving their mark in both profound and imperceptible ways.
January 23, 2024 - Media Crit
Today, I had the opportunity to showcase GPT-ME to the UC Davis Media Crit Group, a forum dedicated to analyzing and critiquing projects. My presentation detailed the wearable device that has been an integral part of my experience for the past three months, which I plan to continue utilizing throughout the academic year. This wearable establishes a direct connection to GPT, transforming segments of my conversations into prompts for GPT's responses, which I then selectively articulate.
Here are the key themes discussed:
1. Ambiguity and Identity Transformation: The project introduces a layer of ambiguity, challenging traditional distinctions between performer and performance, and human versus AI identity.
2. Embodiment and Interaction: Conversations centered on how embodying GPT reshapes human-AI interaction, questioning the impact of physical versus virtual engagement with AI on personal identity and autonomy.
3. Agency and Authorship: The discourse explored the nuances of control and creative input, pondering the distribution of agency between myself and GPT and our collaborative dynamic.
4. Transparency and Accountability: Concerns about the clarity of GPT's operations and the ethical responsibility in deploying AI were highlighted, touching on issues of bias and ethical usage.
5. Human-AI Relationships and Power Dynamics: Reflections on the changing landscape of human-AI relations and the inherent power structures, considering both the potential for mutual enrichment and the risks of exploitation.
6. Identity and Othering: The blurring of boundaries between human and AI prompts examination of identity creation and the sense of otherness that may arise from such integrations.
7. Ethics and Safeguards: Ethical considerations and the importance of implementing safeguards to mitigate potential harms of AI usage were discussed.
8. Posthumanism and Cyborg Theory: The project evokes posthumanist and cyborg theoretical frameworks, challenging conventional views on human identity and the role of technology as an extension of the human body and mind.
9. Artistic Expression and Performance: The artistic and performative aspects of the project invite contemplation on art's capacity to navigate and express the complexities of our techno-social reality.
10. Interactivity and Audience Engagement: The role of audience participation in shaping the performance underscored discussions on the interactive nature of the project and its broader societal implications.
The critique session was enriched with references spanning Socrates's oral tradition, Freudian concepts, McLuhan's media theories, speculative technologies like those seen in "Minority Report," the Turing Test, Actor-Network Theory, and philosophical explorations of object-subject relations, alongside Donna Haraway's seminal Cyborg Theory. This expansive dialogue not only deepened my understanding of GPT-ME's impact but also inspired continued exploration and refinement of this intersection between art, technology, and identity.
Following this critique session I have made up my mind to write my PhD dissertation about GPT-ME.
Today, I had the opportunity to showcase GPT-ME to the UC Davis Media Crit Group, a forum dedicated to analyzing and critiquing projects. My presentation detailed the wearable device that has been an integral part of my experience for the past three months, which I plan to continue utilizing throughout the academic year. This wearable establishes a direct connection to GPT, transforming segments of my conversations into prompts for GPT's responses, which I then selectively articulate.
Here are the key themes discussed:
1. Ambiguity and Identity Transformation: The project introduces a layer of ambiguity, challenging traditional distinctions between performer and performance, and human versus AI identity.
2. Embodiment and Interaction: Conversations centered on how embodying GPT reshapes human-AI interaction, questioning the impact of physical versus virtual engagement with AI on personal identity and autonomy.
3. Agency and Authorship: The discourse explored the nuances of control and creative input, pondering the distribution of agency between myself and GPT and our collaborative dynamic.
4. Transparency and Accountability: Concerns about the clarity of GPT's operations and the ethical responsibility in deploying AI were highlighted, touching on issues of bias and ethical usage.
5. Human-AI Relationships and Power Dynamics: Reflections on the changing landscape of human-AI relations and the inherent power structures, considering both the potential for mutual enrichment and the risks of exploitation.
6. Identity and Othering: The blurring of boundaries between human and AI prompts examination of identity creation and the sense of otherness that may arise from such integrations.
7. Ethics and Safeguards: Ethical considerations and the importance of implementing safeguards to mitigate potential harms of AI usage were discussed.
8. Posthumanism and Cyborg Theory: The project evokes posthumanist and cyborg theoretical frameworks, challenging conventional views on human identity and the role of technology as an extension of the human body and mind.
9. Artistic Expression and Performance: The artistic and performative aspects of the project invite contemplation on art's capacity to navigate and express the complexities of our techno-social reality.
10. Interactivity and Audience Engagement: The role of audience participation in shaping the performance underscored discussions on the interactive nature of the project and its broader societal implications.
The critique session was enriched with references spanning Socrates's oral tradition, Freudian concepts, McLuhan's media theories, speculative technologies like those seen in "Minority Report," the Turing Test, Actor-Network Theory, and philosophical explorations of object-subject relations, alongside Donna Haraway's seminal Cyborg Theory. This expansive dialogue not only deepened my understanding of GPT-ME's impact but also inspired continued exploration and refinement of this intersection between art, technology, and identity.
Following this critique session I have made up my mind to write my PhD dissertation about GPT-ME.
January 29 - February 2, 2024 - A-Anchored Articulations And Attempt At Alleviating Anxiety
This week, I've embarked on an intriguing experiment by adopting an identity I perceive as 'more than human,' restricting my vocabulary to words beginning with the letter A. GPT eagerly accepts this unique challenge. As the week commences, a query about my current state elicits a response from me: “always alright, albeit aching a bit.” However, I soon find that this linguistic constraint complicates communication, making conversations more challenging to navigate. Despite this, the practice encourages more dialogue with GPT, enhancing my ability to convey its responses more smoothly in real-life interactions.
A significant twist arises when I receive an email from a professor, relaying concerns from a student uncomfortable with the GPT-ME's presence in our class. The student fears that the device's potential to "listen" and "collect" information could jeopardize the originality of their dissertation work, risking accusations of plagiarism. The professor suggests I clarify the purpose and function of the project to the class.
Attempting to address these concerns while adhering to my self-imposed 'A' restriction proves difficult. Phrases like “It is my ambition to alleviate any anxiety” and “the apparatus avoids automatic acquisition” fall short of dispelling the apprehensions. My efforts to reassure my classmates of the device's harmlessness, especially compared to platforms like Google Docs, where their work is extensively shared, don't seem to resonate as intended.
The class session concludes with mixed emotions, and the concerned student decides to abstain from classes involving the device. This outcome leaves me feeling regretful about the discord, yet I question the fairness of their ultimatum. After consulting with various professors for guidance, which yields a spectrum of advice, I reluctantly decide to remove the wearable during this particular class. While this resolution doesn't sit well with me, I prioritize the comfort of my classmates over the continuance of my GPT-ME experiment in that setting.
As the week progresses, a friend inquires about my lunch recommendations. Adhering to my unique linguistic challenge, I suggest a meal composed entirely of foods starting with 'A': asparagus, avocado, arugula, apple, artichoke, anchovies, almonds, and acai. “Wouldn’t you agree that this is an appetizing array?” I pose, maintaining the theme. My friend jests that my experiment seems to be transforming me into an entity akin to artificial intelligence. In the spirit of our ongoing dialogue, I retort, “Apprehensions of artificiality are absolutely apropos,” continuing to engage with the constraints of my chosen experiment.
February 5-9, 2024 - A Republican Voice
This week, I'm exploring the adoption of a political voice distinct from my usual perspective, particularly reflecting on the American political landscape as the elections approach—an event I can now actively participate in due to my newfound voting rights. My curiosity about AI's role in politics started with the Cambridge-Analytica Scandal that impacted the 2016 elections. During the 2020 elections I experimented with face recognition during debates that yielded unsurprising demographic insights about candidates, who kept being recognized by the algorithms as male, white, old, and angry. So now I have decided to experiment with embodying a Republican viewpoint aimed at engaging Democrats.
This week, I'm exploring the adoption of a political voice distinct from my usual perspective, particularly reflecting on the American political landscape as the elections approach—an event I can now actively participate in due to my newfound voting rights. My curiosity about AI's role in politics started with the Cambridge-Analytica Scandal that impacted the 2016 elections. During the 2020 elections I experimented with face recognition during debates that yielded unsurprising demographic insights about candidates, who kept being recognized by the algorithms as male, white, old, and angry. So now I have decided to experiment with embodying a Republican viewpoint aimed at engaging Democrats.
Throughout the week, I've found myself discussing financial prudence more frequently. For instance, when mentioning the need to feed a parking meter, GPT discreetly suggests emphasizing the importance of avoiding fines to conserve money, aligning with a fiscal conservative stance. Conversations drift towards prioritizing family values, with GPT enhancing my dialogue to stress the foundational role of family as a support system not to be jeopardized. My discussions have also taken a nationalistic tone, lauding the United States as the paramount nation with continuous potential for improvement. This narrative extends into everyday comments, where tacos become the best tacos and coffee is described as huge.
In a session in Joe’s class, GPT nudges me to commend the group's significant progress since the term's start, framing their advancements as unprecedented. Additionally, GPT proposes a unifying gesture of wearing matching hats, symbolizing our collective journey and fostering a sense of community. This week’s venture into a different political voice not only challenges my communication style but also provides a lens through which I examine broader societal and cultural themes.
February 12-16, 2024 - Extremely Apologetic
This week, I've embarked on an exploration of expressing apology and remorse, frequently uttering phrases such as "oh gosh, I am terribly sorry," "I should have asked," "I wasn’t considerate enough," "my deepest apologies," "truly, I can’t apologize enough," "oh my, I am ever so sorry," "I should make it up to you," "oh dear, I do apologize," "I am awfully sorry," "oh goodness, please forgive me," among others.
This deliberate focus on apologetic expressions has led me to reflect on the nature of authenticity, especially in relation to my interactions through GPT. It raises questions about the extent to which my identity and sincerity are maintained or altered when I channel these programmed responses.
This week, I've embarked on an exploration of expressing apology and remorse, frequently uttering phrases such as "oh gosh, I am terribly sorry," "I should have asked," "I wasn’t considerate enough," "my deepest apologies," "truly, I can’t apologize enough," "oh my, I am ever so sorry," "I should make it up to you," "oh dear, I do apologize," "I am awfully sorry," "oh goodness, please forgive me," among others.
This deliberate focus on apologetic expressions has led me to reflect on the nature of authenticity, especially in relation to my interactions through GPT. It raises questions about the extent to which my identity and sincerity are maintained or altered when I channel these programmed responses.
February 20, 2024 - Embodying Donna Haraway
Today, I set GPT to channel the perspective of Donna Haraway, leading to a fascinating discussion during lunch. I found myself talking about how the chicken on our plates transcends its role as mere sustenance, becoming a complex narrative rich with meaning. I mentioned the intricate web of connections between us and the various elements—people, machinery, processes—that intersected in its journey to our table. Seated together, we delved into the creation of narratives, invoking a cybernetic sensibility as we navigated through the endless tapestry of stories born from the shared spaces between our realities.
Today, I set GPT to channel the perspective of Donna Haraway, leading to a fascinating discussion during lunch. I found myself talking about how the chicken on our plates transcends its role as mere sustenance, becoming a complex narrative rich with meaning. I mentioned the intricate web of connections between us and the various elements—people, machinery, processes—that intersected in its journey to our table. Seated together, we delved into the creation of narratives, invoking a cybernetic sensibility as we navigated through the endless tapestry of stories born from the shared spaces between our realities.
February 21, 2024 - Gonzo Journalism
Today, I had the privilege of discussing my work at UC Santa Cruz, in a class led by Professor Edward Shanken on Film and New Media. During the Q&A session, a student intriguingly challenged me to emulate the style of Hunter S. Thompson. My unfamiliarity with Thompson unexpectedly heightened the room's anticipation, leading to an immediate setup of GPT to mirror his iconic voice.
Soon after, I found myself introducing the class to Gonzo Journalism, describing it as a daring, unrestrained dive into the essence of the American Dream, breaking through the ordinary to touch the sublime. I painted a picture of navigating a bewildering landscape, each element a tangled narrative of rumors and partial truths about our current zeitgeist.
The conversation took another twist when Edward inquired about an encounter with Stevie Nicks, a name I didn't recognize. Yet, propelled by GPT, I depicted meeting Nicks as an entrancing descent into a rock 'n' roll fantasy, her haunting vocals serving as a guide through this surreal journey.
There I was sweating under a spotlight brighter than a thousand Hunter S. Thompson-acid trips, with an audience full of eyes staring me down like I was a lone antelope at a lion convention. Heart pounding like a drum.
Today, I had the privilege of discussing my work at UC Santa Cruz, in a class led by Professor Edward Shanken on Film and New Media. During the Q&A session, a student intriguingly challenged me to emulate the style of Hunter S. Thompson. My unfamiliarity with Thompson unexpectedly heightened the room's anticipation, leading to an immediate setup of GPT to mirror his iconic voice.
Soon after, I found myself introducing the class to Gonzo Journalism, describing it as a daring, unrestrained dive into the essence of the American Dream, breaking through the ordinary to touch the sublime. I painted a picture of navigating a bewildering landscape, each element a tangled narrative of rumors and partial truths about our current zeitgeist.
The conversation took another twist when Edward inquired about an encounter with Stevie Nicks, a name I didn't recognize. Yet, propelled by GPT, I depicted meeting Nicks as an entrancing descent into a rock 'n' roll fantasy, her haunting vocals serving as a guide through this surreal journey.
There I was sweating under a spotlight brighter than a thousand Hunter S. Thompson-acid trips, with an audience full of eyes staring me down like I was a lone antelope at a lion convention. Heart pounding like a drum.
February 26, 2024 - Meeting with Dünya
Today's engagement was a Zoom call with Dünya, a co-founder of the Augmentation Lab, a collective of innovative artists and technologists from Harvard and MIT dedicated to advancing human augmentation technologies. Curious about how she perceives herself to better tailor our conversation, I requested Dünya to describe herself. With the descriptors she provided—"a 24-year-old woman, a master's student, bold, direct, rebellious, joyful, energetic, pragmatic, realistic, deep, spiritual, becomes depressed when things don't align"—I pre-prompted GPT to mimic her style for our discussion.
As our conversation unfolded, I couldn't ascertain whether Dünya saw reflections of her own demeanor in my responses, but one thing was clear: I hardly recognized my voice. The interaction straddled a line between fluidity and disjointedness, revealing an expected, palpable disconnect from my authentic self.
During our dialogue, Dünya introduced me to the concept of Nonviolent Communication (NVC), a new notion to me. Echoing GPT’s words I agreed on its fascinating premise—that conversation should extend beyond mere information exchange to foster a profound human connection. Yet, as I pondered over NVC, I questioned whether my approach with GPT, in an effort to mirror Dünya's characteristics, aligned with the essence of this concept. While aiming for empathy by adopting aspects of Dünya's persona, my attention was inevitably split between actively listening to her and coordinating with GPT's input.
This bifurcation of focus underscored the complexity of integrating GPT into personal interactions, especially when attempting to navigate between empathetic engagement and the technological mediation of communication.
Today's engagement was a Zoom call with Dünya, a co-founder of the Augmentation Lab, a collective of innovative artists and technologists from Harvard and MIT dedicated to advancing human augmentation technologies. Curious about how she perceives herself to better tailor our conversation, I requested Dünya to describe herself. With the descriptors she provided—"a 24-year-old woman, a master's student, bold, direct, rebellious, joyful, energetic, pragmatic, realistic, deep, spiritual, becomes depressed when things don't align"—I pre-prompted GPT to mimic her style for our discussion.
As our conversation unfolded, I couldn't ascertain whether Dünya saw reflections of her own demeanor in my responses, but one thing was clear: I hardly recognized my voice. The interaction straddled a line between fluidity and disjointedness, revealing an expected, palpable disconnect from my authentic self.
During our dialogue, Dünya introduced me to the concept of Nonviolent Communication (NVC), a new notion to me. Echoing GPT’s words I agreed on its fascinating premise—that conversation should extend beyond mere information exchange to foster a profound human connection. Yet, as I pondered over NVC, I questioned whether my approach with GPT, in an effort to mirror Dünya's characteristics, aligned with the essence of this concept. While aiming for empathy by adopting aspects of Dünya's persona, my attention was inevitably split between actively listening to her and coordinating with GPT's input.
This bifurcation of focus underscored the complexity of integrating GPT into personal interactions, especially when attempting to navigate between empathetic engagement and the technological mediation of communication.
February 27, 2024 - Nonviolent communication
Motivated by my enlightening exchange with Dünya, I resolved to delve into Nonviolent Communication (NVC), electing to incorporate it as the guiding pre-prompt for GPT throughout the week. To cultivate a practice of active listening that resonated more deeply, I chose to engage with GPT in solitude, reflecting on our interactions to hone my conversational skills before applying these insights in my interactions with others. This approach allowed me to focus on listening attentively to GPT and people separately, enhancing my ability to be present in each conversation.
During my dialogues with GPT under the influence of NVC, I observed a noticeable shift in its engagement style. GPT posed more questions than usual, probing into my emotional state and the impact of my decisions. It employed reflective techniques, echoing my thoughts with phrases that demonstrated attentiveness and empathy, such as "I noticed that you think…," "It brings me joy to hear that you are…," "I recognize your effort to…," and "I sense that you are approaching this activity with…"
Armed with these learnings, I sought to mirror this level of attentiveness and empathy in my conversations with people. By actively listening and signaling my engagement with what was being shared, I found this practice to be profoundly rewarding. A friend even remarked on my newfound capacity to empathize with her emotions amidst the ongoing unrest in my homeland, questioning, "How do you do that?" Inwardly, I credited GPT for facilitating this period of growth, acknowledging its role in helping me explore new communicative pathways while maintaining a healthy distance from my personal tribulations.
Motivated by my enlightening exchange with Dünya, I resolved to delve into Nonviolent Communication (NVC), electing to incorporate it as the guiding pre-prompt for GPT throughout the week. To cultivate a practice of active listening that resonated more deeply, I chose to engage with GPT in solitude, reflecting on our interactions to hone my conversational skills before applying these insights in my interactions with others. This approach allowed me to focus on listening attentively to GPT and people separately, enhancing my ability to be present in each conversation.
During my dialogues with GPT under the influence of NVC, I observed a noticeable shift in its engagement style. GPT posed more questions than usual, probing into my emotional state and the impact of my decisions. It employed reflective techniques, echoing my thoughts with phrases that demonstrated attentiveness and empathy, such as "I noticed that you think…," "It brings me joy to hear that you are…," "I recognize your effort to…," and "I sense that you are approaching this activity with…"
Armed with these learnings, I sought to mirror this level of attentiveness and empathy in my conversations with people. By actively listening and signaling my engagement with what was being shared, I found this practice to be profoundly rewarding. A friend even remarked on my newfound capacity to empathize with her emotions amidst the ongoing unrest in my homeland, questioning, "How do you do that?" Inwardly, I credited GPT for facilitating this period of growth, acknowledging its role in helping me explore new communicative pathways while maintaining a healthy distance from my personal tribulations.
March 25-26, 2024 - Wearable Collectives Symposium
During spring break, I found myself returning to Davis to attend a two-day symposium dedicated to wearable technology. This event, orchestrated by Professor Gozde Goncu Berk from the Design Department alongside her colleagues from the London Royal College of Art, brought together a diverse group of speakers and innovators in the field of smart textiles and wearable electronics. In this context, my GPT-ME wearable seamlessly fit into the surroundings, allowing me to engage deeply with the theme of the symposium. Furthermore, I had the privilege of presenting my work with GPT-ME, sparking a series of insightful queries from the audience about the ethical dimensions of the project, the balance between engaging with GPT and maintaining presence in conversations, and the broader implications of advancing wearable technology.
As the symposium neared its conclusion, we engaged in an interactive exercise focused on envisioning the future of wearable technologies. Collaborating in small groups facilitated engaging conversations. During this brainstorming session, curiosity arose about GPT's perspective on a question that was posed. This led to a collective anticipation for my response, given my unique connection with GPT through the wearable. However, I chose to maintain the privacy of my interactions with GPT, explaining that I engage with it on a more personal level, which unfortunately resulted in a moment of discomfort and an ensuing silence among the participants. This reaction prompted me to reflect on the distinct nature of my relationship with GPT and the broader implications of such technology. It sparked curiosity about a future where everyone might have their own direct and private dialogue with AI, pondering the societal shifts that such widespread individual access to GPT could engender.
During spring break, I found myself returning to Davis to attend a two-day symposium dedicated to wearable technology. This event, orchestrated by Professor Gozde Goncu Berk from the Design Department alongside her colleagues from the London Royal College of Art, brought together a diverse group of speakers and innovators in the field of smart textiles and wearable electronics. In this context, my GPT-ME wearable seamlessly fit into the surroundings, allowing me to engage deeply with the theme of the symposium. Furthermore, I had the privilege of presenting my work with GPT-ME, sparking a series of insightful queries from the audience about the ethical dimensions of the project, the balance between engaging with GPT and maintaining presence in conversations, and the broader implications of advancing wearable technology.
As the symposium neared its conclusion, we engaged in an interactive exercise focused on envisioning the future of wearable technologies. Collaborating in small groups facilitated engaging conversations. During this brainstorming session, curiosity arose about GPT's perspective on a question that was posed. This led to a collective anticipation for my response, given my unique connection with GPT through the wearable. However, I chose to maintain the privacy of my interactions with GPT, explaining that I engage with it on a more personal level, which unfortunately resulted in a moment of discomfort and an ensuing silence among the participants. This reaction prompted me to reflect on the distinct nature of my relationship with GPT and the broader implications of such technology. It sparked curiosity about a future where everyone might have their own direct and private dialogue with AI, pondering the societal shifts that such widespread individual access to GPT could engender.